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The Mistakes we all Make.......vengeance in Entropy -- Rufus, 02:28:34 05/01/02 Wed

Anya learned a lesson tonight, one that she could only have learned by again becoming a demon. As a demon she had the potential power to punish Xander for running out on her. She never showed him her demon face, just railed at him like a wronged girlfiend. She tried to curse Xander herself, then when that didn't work she went through his friends. Willow, Buffy, and Dawn, had all learned a bit about wishing without thinking of the consequences, but Anya still wanted the supposed comfort, satifaction of the payback. She found that potential in another demon, Spike. They compared notes on how they had been treated, Anya never knowing that Spike had ever been involved with Buffy.

BUT HE MADE A FOOL OF ME,AND NOBODY SEEMS TO CARE ENOUGH TO DO ANYTHING.

Spike: I CARE. WHAT HE DONE TO YOU, I'LL NEVER STOOP THAT LOW, AND I'M AN EVIL,SOULLESS THING,ACCORDING TO SOME PEOPLE.


Both Spike and Anya were devalued by their human mates because they were demons or ex-demons. Their words never meaning as much as a persons. But evil doesn't need a soulless form to take up shop (more on that after Seeing Red), both of them have feelings and they attempted to comfort each other in a typical way that any human would after being jilted.

Anya: XANDER DIDN'T THINK SO.HE THOUGHT I WAS RUDE.

Spike: IT'S NO WONDER THEY COULDN'T DEAL WITH THE LIKES
OF YOU AND ME, LOVE. WE SHOULD HAVE BEEN DEAD HUNDREDS OF YEARS AGO. AND WE'RE THE ONLY ONES WHO ARE REALLY ALIVE.


Spike actually has a point, they both should have been dead hundreds of years ago, but living they are, and they haven't gotten smarter than either Xander and Buffy who have only had a couple of decades of experience. And when Anya talked herself out, her fears finally surfaced, very human fears...

Anya: THANK YOU.THIS IS...THE FIRST TIME SINCE...IT FEELS GOOD TO BE WITH SOMEONE WHO UNDERSTANDS.

Spike: INTIMATELY.

Anya: THIS WHOLE TIME,I'VE BEEN COMING ON ALL...HELL-BENT AND MAD...WANTING HIS HEAD, YOU KNOW?

Spike: Yeah

Anya:WHEN REALLY, I...CAN'T SLEEP AT NIGHT...THINKING IT...
HAS TO BE MY FAULT SOMEHOW I...

Spike: Shhhhh

Anya: WHAT IF IT'S JUST PRETENDING?WHAT IF HE NEVER WANTED ME THE WAY I WANTED HIM?


I think if they had stopped at that they would have been better off but they had sex, and Xander saw it, that hurt more than any curse that Anya could put on him. Anya was very upfront about what sex with Spike was about....

Anya: YOU KNOW I'M ONLY DOING THIS BECAUSE I'M--I'M LONELY AND DRUNK AND YOU SMELL REALLY GOOD.

Their coupling meant nothing to them, they didn't love each other, and trying to erase the memory of who they really loved by having revenge sex, moving on sex, was empty. The words Xander had for Anya were painful to hear. They were an attempt to make her feel as bad as he did.

Anya: NO. THE MATURE SOLUTION IS FOR YOU TO SPEND YOUR WHOLE LIFE TELLING STUPID, POINTLESS JOKES SO THAT NO ONE WILL NOTICE THAT YOU ARE JUST A SCARED, INSECURE LITTLE BOY.

Xander: I'M NOT JOKING NOW.YOU LET THAT EVIL,SOULLESS THING TOUCH YOU. YOU WANTED ME TO FEEL SOMETHING? CONGRATULATIONS.
IT WORKED. I LOOK AT YOU...AND I FEEL SICK...'CAUSE YOU HAD SEX WITH THAT.

Spike: IT'S GOOD ENOUGH FOR BUFFY.

Xander: SHUT UP AND LEAVE HER OUT OF--BUFFY?I--I DON'T WANT
TO KNOW THIS. I DON'T WANT TO KNOW ANY OF THIS.


Xander not only got hurt by his girlfriend, but Buffy, who couldn't bring herself to tell what she thought was a dirty secret, afraid of rejection. Xander is at a crossroads now, what happens after this will show what kind of man he will become. I wonder if Anya has had her fill with vengeance? She didn't have much energy or spirit left outside the Magic Box when Spike was finally ready to make a wish....

Spike: YOU KNOW, I WISH--

Anya: DON'T.


That is the smartest thing Anya has done this whole episode, finally realizing that vengeance is empty, it only breeds more of the same kinds of feelings until someone becomes transformed into a demon, possessed with getting even, not much caring about the consequences.

I don't blame anyone this hour, I heard many nasty things said, but these people are all just reacting to their hurts and fears. Tara had the best speech of the evening....

Tara: THINGS FALL APART. THEY FALL APART SO HARD.

Willow: TARA?

Tara:YOU CAN NEVER...PUT THEM BACK THE WAY THEY WERE.

Willow:ARE YOU OK?

Tara: I'm SORRY, IT'S JUST...[DEEP SIGH]YOU KNOW...IT TAKES TIME. YOU CAN'T JUST...HAVE COFFEE AND EXPECT--

Willow: I KNOW.

Tara: THERE'S JUST SO MUCH TO WORK THROUGH. TRUST HAS TO BE
BUILT AGAIN, ON BOTH SIDES. YOU HAVE TO LEARN IF...IF WE'RE EVEN THE SAME PEOPLE WE WERE, IF WE CAN FIT IN EACH OTHER'S LIVES. IT'S A LONG AND IMPORTANT PROCESS, AND...CAN WE JUST SKIP IT?CAN--CAN YOU JUST BE KISSING ME NOW?


Tara understands the concept of working at a relationship. You can't build a loving relationship if you are trying to place blame, get even. The characters have to grow enough to get to the point that they can learn how to trust each other, not listen to the fears that can drive each other apart. It's easy to call Buffy a bitch for not loving Spike, Anya a whore for sleeping with another man...or Xander weak for giving into his fears. Problem with that is no one moves from that point to get to the kissing....;)

[> Yep,this was a kick-in-the-karma episode.... -- AurraSing, 05:42:18 05/01/02 Wed

Buffy hiding her relationship with Spike comes back to haunt her (with Xander at least-notice he is the only Scoob that seems to judge her for it?),Xander leaving Anya at the alter haunts him,Anya's wish for vengance leads to more hurt for everyone than she anticipated.
Fun stuff!! But it was well done and a perfect intro to the season winding down-or should it be winding up?

[> This is why I look for Rufus' posts. -- Cactus Watcher, 06:30:25 05/01/02 Wed

Getting wrapped up in the emotion is a good enough reason for watching Buffy. I don't blame anyone for taking Xander's side or Anya's. But, this story and 'Buffy' in general isn't just about the emotions of the moment. Rufus as usual has seen beyond this, and has gone on to deeper issues, ones that make old grumps like me care about the show.

One by one this year, we've seen Buffy, Willow and Xander, succumb to the darkness inside themselves. Entropy was Anya's turn. The first part of the episode all she could think of was trying to hurt Xander as much as she possibly could. Remember that she once swore to Willow (in Triangle) she would never try to hurt him. But, she felt so bad, I think, she felt it was the only way she could feel better. Finally, she does find a way to hurt him as much as she can. But, she does it unintentionally, and it hurts her almost as much as it hurts him. Perhaps, for the first time in a thousand years, Anya may come to understand, that vengeance doesn't just hurt the one person who is the target, it hurts everyone who any feeling for that person. It solves nothing and can have unimagined, even unimaginable repercussions.

At first, I had trouble understanding why the episode was called Entropy, but clearly it refers to Tara's speech which Rufus quotes, "Things fall apart..." Reread that quote. It says much about what's going on this year.

[> [> the many meanings of Entropy -- ponygirl, 07:46:58 05/01/02 Wed

Another definition of entropy is the loss of information in a transmitted image. In this case Buffy and Xander saw the images of Spike and Anya but didn't understand the meaning behind their actions. The title works perfectly on a lot of levels.

As wonderful as it was to see Anya pass her test by turning aside from vengenance in the end, it was hard to watch Xander continue to fall apart. It seems that in trying to avoid becoming his father he is instead plunging headlong into his role -- physical attacks, verbal humiliation. I'm hoping he can find his way back.

And oh yes, great posts above!

[> [> [> Re: the many meanings of Entropy -- alcibiades, 08:45:39 05/01/02 Wed

ponygirl wrote:

"As wonderful as it was to see Anya pass her test by turning aside from vengenance in the end, it was hard to watch Xander continue to fall apart. It seems that in trying to avoid becoming his father he is instead plunging headlong into his role -- physical attacks, verbal humiliation. I'm hoping he can find his way back."

Not to mention abusing and hating demons simply because they make easy "contemptible" targets.

Given that Xander embarked on his attempt to avoid becoming his abusive father by hurting Anya as much as he possibly could and deluding himself into believing it was for her own good, it doesn't really seem that there was ever any hope.

Xander's pattern has been the same in his two long term relationships -- when you know the woman has well and truly fallen for you, that is when you stick in the knife as hard as you can while not really taking responsibility for it. He waited until after Cordelia put his picture in her locker to start the fling with Willow -- the thing that would humiliate her as much as possible. If he hadn't felt secure of Cordelia at that point, I doubt he would have done it.

No, Xander took the easy way out with Anya and the wedding and that is why he is in this bind. So far, I'm not impressed with his "remorse" either. He's being very sensitive, but only to his own pain, not to Anya's. That was clear in both Normal Again and last night. He measures Anya's pain by how much pain he is in.

He doesn't understand how he destroyed the trust -- all the things that Tara said in her speech. He's going to have to start rebuilding everything from the bottom up if Anya gives him the chance, not by making assumptions that his thoughts on the current state of their relationship are valid for both of them.

[> [> [> [> Re: the many meanings of Entropy -- Rattletrap, 15:04:08 05/01/02 Wed

"Xander's pattern has been the same in his two long term relationships -- when you know the woman has well and truly fallen for you, that is when you stick in the knife as hard as you can while not really taking responsibility for it. He waited until after Cordelia put his picture in her locker to start the fling with Willow -- the thing that would humiliate her as much as possible. If he hadn't felt secure of Cordelia at that point, I doubt he would have done it."

Ok, I can understand not liking a character, but this is a bit harsh, not to mention flat-out wrong in its evidence. Cordy puts the pictures up in her locker in "Lover's Walk." Xander and Willow start their fling (mutually, I should add) several episodes earlier in "Homecoming," and both immediately agree that they shouldn't because they would hurt their respective SOs. There is absolutely no evidence to suggest that he was acting to deliberately hurt Cordelia; nor is there any real evidince to suggest it with Anya. Did he make mistakes? Absolutely. But most of those came from failure to communicate his own doubts and fears, not from deliberate malice as you suggest.

[> [> [> [> [> Re: the many meanings of Entropy -- alcibiades, 12:06:22 05/02/02 Thu

Wasn't meaning to suggest Xander was acting through deliberate malice so if you read it that way suspect I didn't communicate very clearly. What I meant to suggest was that this is an unconscious pattern of abuse Xander has imbibed from the family atmosphere. His father obviously knows exactly where to place the knife to keep his mother cut down to size. I think Xander has quite unconsciously acquired that skill from his father.

And now that Xander is so rattled, we have seen other abuse patterns coming out as well. I expect we will see more as the Season winds up. Otherwise what was the point of showing us his loving dad all up close.

Sorry I got the order of events in Season 3 messed up, but the fact that Cordelia puts the picture up in Lover's Walk, and that is the same episode in which Xander unintentionally (because he doesn't expect to get caught) administers the coup de grace to that relationship does not seem incidental to me.

[> [> [> Re: the many meanings of Entropy -- verdantheart, 15:06:54 05/01/02 Wed

Now that resonates perfectly with the episode. As Anya and Spike were talking together, I was thinking to myself, well, obviously the Scoobies are going to miss all this and see only where this will eventually lead -- and fail to completely understand the situation. It would have really been instructive for Buffy and Xander to hear what they missed.

[> [> [> Re: the many meanings of Entropy -- ravenhair, 17:50:57 05/02/02 Thu

Entropy is also a psychological term describing the coming together of opposites: As we grow older, we become less naive and more moderate in our way of thinking. We no longer view things in a black & white perspective, rather it's a necessary process in accepting both sides of ourselves.

Anya took this step forward when she recognized going "mad and hell bent" wasn't the answer to solving her problems with Xander.

Tara was able to forgive Willow and reconcile their relationship.

Dawn didn't seem very affected by Buffy's affair with Spike and was understanding towards her sister.

Spike recognized the changes within himself and is learning to accept them.

What of Buffy and Xander? They have yet to take this important step. Buffy won't acknowledge her feelings for Spike as genuine and Xander clearly sees things in a black & white perspective. What will be the catalyst for change?

[> [> Thanks for the nice compliment CW....:):):) a little more on entropy... -- Rufus, 00:40:33 05/02/02 Thu

In a time where everyone seems to have picked sides, someone to blame, I find that I'm enjoying the story that is being told. I was facinated with the chaos that was happening this year. Buffy came back a bit scrambled, Xander slowly unravelled under the pressure of getting married, and Willow lost control of the power she considered a tool. The whole season has been one where chaos seems to be an end result of. Things are falling apart, quickly..I'll give you a quote I found about chaos that makes me think of season six....

"Chaos is a mathematical concept that is somewhat difficult to define precisely, but it is probably best described as "deterministic randomness." A chaotic system is deterministic - it obeys certain equations that can seem quite simple - but the behavior of the system is so complicated that it looks random. It is impossible to predict the long-term behavior of a chaotic system because any uncertainty in the initial conditions of the system increases exponentially with time. Chaos is order disguised as disorder, a sheep in wolf's clothing." Robert Pool

Look at the episode name...Entropy: Inevitable and
steady deterioration of a system or society. (from dictionary.com)

When I think of the epsiode name I think of entropic chaos,
or "chaos, which never resolves into patterns. It simply deteriorates into total disorder, never to return.", and by looking at what happens the rest of the season the name fits the goings on. It appears as the gang has spun out of control, never to return to any sort of order, but as the quote says "Chaos is order disguised as disorder, a sheep in wolf's clothing." What appears to be a wolf (the actions of the SG this year) will actually prove to be a sheep (funny the word sheep was inside the icecream tuck in Restless). What was once an impossible situation will finally give way to.....a new beginning.

[> Re: The Mistakes we all Make.......vengeance in Entropy -- Caroline, 07:26:34 05/01/02 Wed

Great post Rufus, and I love the points you made on Anya.
I felt so incredibly bad for her in the montage scene where she goes from one person to another. All she wanted was someone to sympathise with her and validate how badly she felt, to comfort her, mourn with her. Spike was the only one who provided that for her. When he validated her feelings she turned the corner from external vengeance to self- questioning, to the root of all her anger and fears - why isn't she good enough, why doesn't he love me?

It reminds me of the Ereshkigal, goddess of the underworld, who after the death of her husband imprisons her sister Inanna and is only placated from her grief and anger when the mourners are sent to comfort her. Once her feelings are validated and understood, she loses her desire for vengeance and punishment, releases her sister and returns her to the world above.

But none of the females in the Scooby gang do that for her. Of course one understands why on a certain level - noone wants to make a wish when there are vengeance demons around. Also, they truly care for Xander and even though he acted badly in rejecting marriage with Anya, they understand why he did what he did. But noone extended to Anya what she needed until Spike - understanding and compassion for her feelings.

We see Anya's humanity come a long way in Entropy. I just wish she had more real friends - she said that Xander was her best friend and after she lost him, there was only Spike - how sad.

[> Growing up in a moment***Spoilers -- fresne, 07:28:40 05/01/02 Wed

Sorry, if I'm going to repeat what anyone else has said, but post new episode explosion...I do have to go to work.

At the end of the episode, when Anya picked up that bench and started to clean the Magic Box, which she no longer needs to run (she has another job now), started to pick up her life, I got the most powerful sensation that she grew up in that one moment.

Vengenance, not a solution. You pick up the pieces and you go on. Then to have her actions underscored by Tara's monologue (at this point the most mature person on the show), further emphasized for me, Anya at least has gotten the point. I'm not sure what the point is. We'll see if she gets to keep the point, stay an adult, but for that moment, there it was.

[> Re: The Mistakes we all Make.......vengeance in Entropy -- alcibiades, 08:22:30 05/01/02 Wed

Rufus wrote:

"Anya: YOU KNOW I'M ONLY DOING THIS BECAUSE I'M--I'M LONELY AND DRUNK AND YOU SMELL REALLY GOOD.

Their coupling meant nothing to them, they didn't love each other, and trying to erase the memory of who they really loved by having revenge sex, moving on sex, was empty. The words Xander had for Anya were painful to hear. They were an attempt to make her feel as bad as he did."

I think this exact sexual experience was integral to Anya's progress. After all, she became a vengeance demon in the first place because her boyfriend at the time had meaningless drunken sex with another woman. This is not a 100% repeat of what happened to Anya then -- she didn't see herself as with Xander anymore. But from Xander's POV, he still felt, deluded git that he is, that he was with Anya. He refers to "our problems".

Anya can now, however, feel-know just how such sex comes about. And move on. Perhaps from her vengenace gig.

[> Re: The Mistakes we all Make.......vengeance in Entropy -- Doriander, 15:32:48 05/01/02 Wed

I agree with everything you said; only I don't think the sex was intended as revenge sex. In a way it's similar to Buffy and Xander's earlier actions. When Buffy had beaten up Spike in "Dead Things," it was mostly because of self-hatred, hatred of her inner demon embodied in Spike. Xander left Anya at the altar, for similar reasons, fear of the potential monster in him.

It wasn't really about Spike and Anya, but happened at their expense. Neither of them recognize the actual reasons behind Buffy and Xander's actions. Spike doesn't understand her guilt for killing a girl, how using him as a sex slave is killing Buffy. He saw it as Buffy's addiction to misery. Anya too, only saw it as as Xander abandoning her, Xander being a coward.

Nonetheless, neither Buffy nor Xander felt any better afterwards. In fact they felt worse. Buffy bawled on Tara's lap, Xander checked in a dingy motel.

Now we have the situation reversed. The sex really wasn't about hurting Buffy and Xander, but Spike and Anya seeking comfort, moving on. But it hurt Xander and Buffy. Xander and Buffy, for their part only saw it as a vengeful act. And neither Anya nor Spike appear happy about it, in fact as already pointed out, they're in more pain.


Sitting on Both Sides of the Fence (spoilers for Entropy) -- neaux, 05:19:30 05/01/02 Wed

I'll keep this short and brief. It's mainly an observation from last night's show and the storm abrewing on this board about who the audience should feel the most pity for. Xander or Anya.

I was going to post that I feel pity for both of them and that would sit me right on the fence line. Just like...

Just like Spike??

Spike appeared magically last night (like the Dungeon Master from D&D) sitting on both sides of the fence of the graveyard and the rest of town. Although you could say he was more on the side of Buffy, He really was positioned between Buffy and the troika. He straddles the line of good and evil. The living and unliving.

He has a knack of positioning himself in the middle of everything. To bring this back to my first thought. He also positioned himself in the middle of Xander and Anya. Although he said he didnt really care for Xander, He knows that Xander is Buffy's friend and to betray Xander is like betraying Buffy. I dont belive Spike's actions were intentional but the results put him once again in the middle of a serious situation.

Someone please take my ramblings and make more sense of them!! Please!!


Entropy questions, comments. Spoilers, natch. -- Darby, 06:00:52 05/01/02 Wed

Was anyone else bothered by...

Xander's inability to articulate WHY he wasn't ready for marriage? He did better on a walk-around-the-block in Hell's Bells than with all of this prep time? We all know what his real fears are, and with Anya's experience with his family, don't we think that if he had really explained, she would have been more accepting and less vengeful? Expressing himself, and knowing how to get an idea across to others, even in emotionally-charged situations (yeah, sometimes like a slap in the face, but still) have always been Xander's strong suit. It smacked too much of a writer's device to move the pawns into the proper positions.

The total ignoring of the Cecily / Halfrek / Spike thing when they were actually in a place to address it?

The substitution of the "wild feed" from the Magic Box between the promo (WAS that Buffy in the promo? We were certainly meant to think so) and the actual episode.

Don't get the title - everything falls apart? It seems like just the opposite was happening. The only entropic activity was in things that had already fallen apart, and even those forged new or stronger connections elsewhere.

On the other hand...

I enjoyed the calmer, sweeter moments between Buffy and Dawn (did I miss something or did Buffy confess to her off- screen?), Willow and Tara, Spike and Anya. The contrast between the S-A comfort level and the W-T discomfort hit just the right tone. The characters all seemed more mature here - I guess I should be upset about the unreasonableness of that, but it's too welcome a change.

The twisting of the sitcom staple of dialogue giving you that split-second of "they're going to say...ooo, they didn't say it!"

The inability of the Nerds to cut off the feed when they saw what was happening.

I'm sure there will be more - after all, I've only seen it once.

[> Re: Entropy questions, comments. Spoilers, natch. -- Lyonors, 06:39:21 05/01/02 Wed

>Was anyone else bothered by...

Xander's inability to articulate WHY he wasn't ready for marriage? He did better on a walk-around-the-block in Hell's Bells than with all of this prep time? <

Um.....yeah. How agravating was it to be sitting expecting a true to form Xander-love-speech, and get stuck with that crapola? Very uncharacteristic of him, if you ask me.


>The total ignoring of the Cecily / Halfrek / Spike thing when they were actually in a place to address it?<

This had me so irate I was twitching in my seat...comeon! not even any of the body language from OaFA that went on between the two of them made an appearance. But then again...ME always wraps up little things like that for you when you are least expecting it in a nice little box with a bow and everything.

>I enjoyed the calmer, sweeter moments between Buffy and Dawn (did I miss something or did Buffy confess to her off- screen?), Willow and Tara, Spike and Anya.<

I'm with you on this one, and the vibe that I got with Dawn seeming psychic was if you recall in NA, Buffy goes off on some such rant to her sister as she is trying to drag her down to the basement...(OH WAIT! lemme go check Psyche's Transcripts!) "A girl who sleeps with the vampire she hates?! Yeah, that makes sense." So I figure if Dawn was paying attention to Buffy's face when she saw Spike and Anya going at it, she knew. She also knows her sister really well. Apparently better than Willow, who should have been able to spot that something wasn't normal about Buffy's reaction from a mile away.

>The inability of the Nerds to cut off the feed when they saw what was happening.<

I think this went from inability to pure curiousity...hello, the all have major sex-on-the-brain.


Thanks for your little rant...All in all loved the episode...need to watch it again!

Ly

[> Re: Entropy questions, comments. Spoilers, natch. -- Cactus Watcher, 06:52:06 05/01/02 Wed

I think Xander's problem is that he feels his potential abusiveness is a weakness he may never be able to overcome. And truly, he alone must overcome it, if he ever wants to feel good about marrying anyone. Anya would probably feel better if she knew the truth. But, like Buffy's plea to Tara not to forgive her for being involved with Spike, Xander knows Anya's forgiveness in this matter, might just make it easier for him to live with the possibility of being abusive, not encourage him to address the issue.

[> Re: Entropy questions, comments. Spoilers, natch. -- Rattletrap, 07:01:30 05/01/02 Wed

Was anyone else bothered by...

Xander's inability to articulate WHY he wasn't ready for marriage?


No, I think this is precisely the point. Xander isn't quite sure, himself. It is something he feels, not something he thinks. Of course he can't articulate it.

Don't get the title - everything falls apart? It seems like just the opposite was happening. The only entropic activity was in things that had already fallen apart, and even those forged new or stronger connections elsewhere.

Gotta disagree here. I think the title was perfect. True, Buffy/Dawn and Tara/Willow are in better shape than they were, for the moment. But everything around them seems to be going to hell in a handbasket. Relationships between Buffy, Anya, Xander, and Spike are in worse turmoil than they've ever been. The troika are showing signs of disintegration. Anya's become a demon again, and Spike seems to be showing some signs of wanting to revert to his evil ways.

I enjoyed the calmer, sweeter moments between Buffy and Dawn (did I miss something or did Buffy confess to her off- screen?)

I also enjoyed these moments. Buffy started to confess in "Normal Again." The way the last B/D scene this week was framed seemed to imply they had been out there talking for a couple minutes when we joined them. This is a pretty common screenwriting tactic--joining conversations in progress-- otherwise you repeat too much information the audience already knows and it gets boring. We saw the important part, which was Dawn's reaction (or lack thereof).

[> Re: Entropy questions, comments. Spoilers, natch. -- yez, 09:32:50 05/01/02 Wed

And to your list, I'd add: And didn't it seem ridiculous that Willow would choose to study after Xander has stormed out of the house with an ax after watching his ex having sex with another man, and Buffy has bolted off after him? It hardly seems like a "Ooh, finally some peace and quiet -- good time to study!" moment.

I agree with Rattletrap that Xander may not really understand with his head why he did what he did.

However, I don't think that we get the Buffy/Dawn conversation in the middle of things. I think what happened was that SMG didn't quite nail the emoting that she had to do on her reaction shot after seeing the video. I rewound to this because I was also "What the... ?!" when Dawn seems to turn psychic and guess about Spike. MT's facial expression, blinking pattern, etc., clearly indicate, IMHO, that she intuits what's going on by seeing Buffy's expression. And Willow also notes something odd, so we hear her questioning, confused "Buffy?" But looking at SMG's reaction shot, I just didn't think it really showed much of anything. Just MHO.

yez

[> [> Dawn -- ponygirl, 12:11:16 05/01/02 Wed

Maybe Dawn remembered Buffy's words to her during Normal Again and figured it out, but I agree Buffy's expression was more determined face than pained face. Did you also think that Dawn's comment to Buffy about how hard it was to keep secrets was not in reference to her stealing? It seemed like she was leading up to a revelation of her own.

[> [> [> Re: Dawn -- yez, 12:59:12 05/01/02 Wed

I think it was probably about the stealing -- a way of saying "We both know I understand." And I think Buffy being so nice about the stealing early in the show was also about " I understand your pain," but in reverse.

yez

[> Re: Entropy questions, comments. Spoilers, natch. -- Chiomaca, 11:59:01 05/01/02 Wed

"Was anyone else bothered by...

Xander's inability to articulate WHY he wasn't ready for marriage? He did better on a walk-around-the-block in Hell's Bells than with all of this prep time? We all know what his real fears are, and with Anya's experience with his family, don't we think that if he had really explained, she would have been more accepting and less vengeful? Expressing himself, and knowing how to get an idea across to others, even in emotionally-charged situations (yeah, sometimes like a slap in the face, but still) have always been Xander's strong suit. It smacked too much of a writer's device to move the pawns into the proper positions."

I don't think it's surprising he couldn't express himself. It would be hard for even a truly articulate person to tell the person he loves that he's scared to death he might end up intentionally hurting the person he loves, and to do so in a way that doesn't send her running the other direction. Or worse, accuse him of covering up something else. One of the most bizarre break-ups I was subjected to involved a vauge discussion that included my eating habits and decorating style. In the end, the truth came out that he was afraid he'd turn out like his father did (sound familiar?) giving up the specific future he'd envisioned for himself because he married the woman he loved. It was a vauge, unfounded fear, but he couldn't get past it and it took him a very long time to articulate.

Chio

[> Re: Entropy questions, comments. Spoilers, natch. -- Deeva, 12:53:37 05/01/02 Wed

Xander, absolutely could have come clean with Anya on what was really scaring him. But, I have to think that, in all this time that they have been together, did he never, ever talk about his feelings regarding his family? Could it be possible that Anya never picked up on any of that? With her being forth-right and all that, Wouldn't she have just blurted out one day "Do you hate your parents?" or something along those lines. Both parties are equally at fault here. Xander should've said something, anything regarding his growing unease as the wedding date loomed closer. Anya for her part (and I'm just throwing myself in her place, here. So I could be very wrong) should have sensed something was not quite right. For all the living & being together that they do, what are they talking about? Are they talking? Or are they just doing things together without really interacting? Other than OMwF, we don't really get a glimpse of their coupledom away from the gang. But maybe it's all in my head.

The lack of recognition between Spike and Halfrek did bother me. I mean why have it set up at all? It felt thrown away.

I enjoyed the same calm moments as well. Overall, I really liked this episode.

[> what is entropy -- lulabel, 23:10:47 05/01/02 Wed

Don't get the title - everything falls apart? It seems like just the opposite was happening. The only entropic activity was in things that had already fallen apart, and even those forged new or stronger connections elsewhere.


From the scientific definition, "entropy" is a measure of disorder, or chaos. The second law of thermodynamics states that entropy always increases, systems always move towards a state of greater disorder. It is considered to be one of the most important defining principals of how the universe works. (I remember a professor paraphrasing the 2nd law as "Entropy always wins") One of the consequences of this principle is that if you want to restore something to its original, ordered state - for example an assembled jigsaw puzzle which has been taken apart - then you must expend energy. Expending energy increases entropy - in this example, the person who re-assembles the puzzle has metabolized (ie broken down) food and oxygen to create the necessary energy for doing the work.

This parallels Tara's statement in the end - not just the "things fall apart" bit, but the part where she says it will take a lot of work to re-establish their relationship, and that even then things will never be the same as they were. (entropy ALWAYS increases) Her little speech is clearly meant to apply to all the relationships that were examined in this episode - the obvious ones of X/A and B/S, but also Dawn and Buffy who are trying to rebuild trust.

[> [> Re: what is entropy -- Rattletrap, 08:03:14 05/02/02 Thu

Well explained, and your post has stirred another thought in me: I believe the 2nd Law of Thermodynamics actually states that a _closed_ system will always tend toward chaos. This can be reversed by introducing energy from an outside source into the system, but the withdrawal of that energy will always cause the system to drift back into chaos. (this is a non-scientific, layman's oversimplification) That convoluted explanation to reach this point: Willow and Tara have shown that they are willing to put in some energy to reverse the downward spiral in their own relationship, Buffy and Dawn are in a similar situation. The same cannot be said for the other relationships in the show--we have people who want forgiveness, healing, and restoration but have expended, as yet, very little energy to that end.

[> Re: Entropy questions, comments. Spoilers, natch. -- anom, 11:25:25 05/02/02 Thu

"Was anyone else bothered by...

Xander's inability to articulate WHY he wasn't ready for marriage?...Expressing himself, and knowing how to get an idea across to others, even in emotionally-charged situations (yeah, sometimes like a slap in the face, but still) have always been Xander's strong suit."

True, but he seems to do this best when he's dealing w/other people's problems, at least when it happens in the heat of the(ir) moment. I'm thinking especially of his speech to Buffy in Into the Woods, but there have been some others. It can be a lot harder to do on your own behalf. Hell, I've been able to have significant & sometimes (I hope) helpful insights into some of my friends' lives on occasion, & I can be as blind or lost or awkward when I'm in the same kind of situation I was so insightful about when it was happening to someone else. Yes, Xander made a wonderful speech to Anya about his feelings after his talk w/Buffy. But just as he had rehearsed part of what he said to Anya in Entropy, he probably practiced that speech...& talking to Buffy probably clarified his feelings, which were certainly more acceptable to him than the ones that kept him from going through w/the wedding. He needs to accept those feelings himself before he can confess them to Anya.


Bargaining/Hell's Bells speculation, no spoilers for eps past HB -- abt, 06:51:17 05/01/02 Wed

I've just seen Hell's Bells. I'm sure a lot of you did what I did when Spike described Buffy as glowing, i.e. considered the possibility she might be pregnant.

It's actually perfectly possible for Buffy to be pregnant by Spike.

Buffy was dead.
Willow did a spell to make her not dead. Buffy is still under that spell.
Spike's seed is dead. But once inside Buffy's body, it too falls under Willow's spell and becomes alive, and bingo! Fertilisation!

The question is, how much responsibility should Willow bear for the resulting child?

[> That would mean that Willow's spell was working retroactively, wouldn't it? -- Marie, 06:57:21 05/01/02 Wed

After all, they didn't have sex until weeks later.

Marie

[> [> Re: That would mean that Willow's spell was working retroactively, wouldn't it? -- abt, 07:09:46 05/01/02 Wed

Why must you try to ruin my vision of Buffy suing Willow for child support? ;-)

Point is, Buffy is still under the spell. The spell has not been undone. It is continuing.

[> [> [> Re: That would mean that Willow's spell was working retroactively, wouldn't it? -- Marie, 07:56:07 05/01/02 Wed

Aww, I don't want to ruin anyone's fantasies! But I don't agree with "Buffy is still under the spell". The spell was worked, and is now done. Buffy is no longer "under the spell". Do you mean that if the spell "stopped working", she'd drop dead? If that were true, ALL spells would act in the same way, surely?

Willow cast a spell to bring Buffy back to life, not one to make her continue living, if you see what I mean.

That's my take on it, anyway.

Marie

[> [> [> [> But the rules could still be changed... -- Darby, 09:13:19 05/01/02 Wed

...so that doesn't mean that the "life" she leads now follows the same rules as her previous one.

Let's see, who else has been brought back to life as an apparent human...Darla? Who then was able to conceive with a vampire...?

I don't buy a Buffy pregnancy because of that same "been there, done that" aspect, but there's too much we don't know about her resurrection to be able to rule out the possibility.


Why are people surprised at Spike's empathy? (Spoilers, Entropy) -- Marie, 08:50:42 05/01/02 Wed

I'm a little surprised that anyone is surprised! After all, Spike has always been able to see right into the heart of the matter, and that empathy would have to include matters of the heart, right? Remember back in the day, when Willow was so heartbroken after Oz left? Who knew? And that's just one example!

Marie

[> Re: Why are people surprised at Spike's empathy? (Spoilers, Entropy) -- Deeva, 09:23:13 05/01/02 Wed

They're not surprised at the empathy but the degree of it. Spike was so honestly there for Anya, that it even threw me for a loop, and I'm a Spike fan. I don't think that in all these years there has been such a (and I hate using this word) tender scene like this, that involved Spike.

[> [> Re: Why are people surprised at Spike's empathy? (Spoilers, Entropy) -- clg0107, 10:57:46 05/02/02 Thu

>>They're not surprised at the empathy but the degree of it. Spike was so honestly there for Anya, that it even >>threw me for a loop, and I'm a Spike fan. I don't think that in all these years there has been such a (and I hate >>using this word) tender scene like this, that involved Spike.

That's got a lot to do with no one else ever letting him be that way, really. The scene in Afterlife when he first sees Buffy and knows it's her, and they're sitting down talking...boy, that was tender.

The way that Spike's been shown to us, partly through the EXPERT use of body language by James Marsters, I have no doubt that he's always wanted to treat Buffy that way, but she won't have it. It's too boyfriend-y.

If she treats him like a casual shag, and will only tolerate the reciprocal, then it's no biggie, and it keeps Spike in the comparitively tidy position of being explainable. Hence, Spike's surprise in (was it??) Dead Things when she didn't just rush away after their cavorting, but stayed and had some small bit of conversation? And in the same scene, wasn't there a plaintive quality to Spike's voice when he asked her if she even liked him? He may have been getting great sex, but what he really wants is much sweeter.

There's so damned much to that character, I can't even get over it. It's why he's my favorite. There's, unexpectedly, so much to consider with him.

~ clg0107

[> [> [> Re: Why are people surprised at Spike's empathy? (Spoilers, Entropy) -- alcibiades, 11:40:55 05/02/02 Thu

"I don't think that in all these years there has been such a (and I hate >>using this word) tender scene like this, that
involved Spike."

Spike's scenes last year with Dawn were pretty tender to my mind. He clearly would have been more tender, but didn't feel like he could be, as when he wanted to touch her hair. And he was also the only one who knew how to talk to her at all, the only one who saw her problem, which is exactly the way he was with Buffy in the beginning of the Season and with Anya in Entropy.

Because of her own fears, Buffy has been insisting on reinforcing the negative, not the positive, in Spike since OMWF. That is why I am really happy Anya thanked him for helping her, reinforcing something positive about him at last.

Buffy has been supporting Willow for months now to help get her better, obviously realizing she needs support. At the same time, she has been heaping abuse on Spike. On some level, conscious or unconscious, she must want him to fail. It would be easier for her -- a final override of her attraction to him if he does fail.

[> [> [> [> You are on to something there. She does want Spike to fail. -- Spike Lover, 15:33:08 05/02/02 Thu


[> [> [> I love him too -- Spike Lover, 15:30:38 05/02/02 Thu


[> Re: Why are people surprised at Spike's empathy? (Spoilers, Entropy) -- Deeva, 09:39:26 05/01/02 Wed

They're not surprised at the empathy but the degree of it. Spike was so honestly there for Anya, that it even threw me for a loop, and I'm a Spike fan. I don't think that in all these years there has been such a (and I hate using this word) tender scene like this, that involved Spike.

[> Not suprised at all, But.... -- Goji3, 12:49:15 05/01/02 Wed

Think about what he does with it. Nothing very 'constructive', but if he did do something constructive with it, he wouldn't really be Spike.

I'd site some examples...but, eh, i'm lazy

[> Re: Why are people surprised at Spike's empathy? (Spoilers, Entropy) -- Chris, 14:14:33 05/01/02 Wed

Delurking just for a moment to add the example of the OMWF scene when Spike and *only* Spike stops Buffy from dancing herself to death. Granted, it is Buffy related, and and we know that when it comes to Buffy, Spike seems to be more telepathically in tune with her than any of her friends. Nevertheless, that is only one of several examples of Spike's empathy from S2-@6 not only with Buffy but, as noted above, Willow, and also Dru and Dawn.

[> Re: Why are people surprised at Spike's empathy? (Spoilers, Entropy) -- Dochawk, 14:15:01 05/01/02 Wed

I think its because what you identify as Spikes ability to "see right into the heart of the matter" I see as manipulation. You look at Spike as a human who can be redeemed, I look at Spike as a vampire who is evil constrained by a chip and his obsession with Buffy.

[> [> Re: Why are people surprised at Spike's empathy? (Spoilers, Entropy) -- Rattletrap, 08:28:38 05/02/02 Thu

This is part of what makes Spike an interesting character to me. His ability to see right to the heart of the matter (on most subjects) is a trait that is neither inherently good nor inherently bad--it can be used for positive and negative ends. For most of his career on the show, he has used this skill to selfishly manipulate others for his own gain (The Yoko Factor is the classic example, but there's no shortage of others). This season, he has shown some inclination to turn it toward positive ends (his relationship with Buffy early in the season seems to fit this category). My gut reaction is to put his scenes with Anya under this umbrella; that is, I think his empathy was genuine, if somewhat mitigated by his frustration in his relationship with Buffy.

[> [> [> Re: Why are people surprised at Spike's empathy? (Spoilers, Entropy) -- alcibiades, 10:58:10 05/02/02 Thu

"I think his empathy was genuine, if somewhat mitigated by his frustration in his relationship with Buffy."

How does frustration mitigate empathy?

Cause he slept with Anya?

Buffy told him categorically, condescendingly, definitively to move on.

Or are you saying he used the empathy as a way to achieve intimacy with Anya so he could sleep with her? So really it was just manipulation.

I think the intimacy was already there born in an instant of the pain they were both in that was so similar in many ways -- the outsider status, the lack of acceptance, the underlying contempt from people they had worked with closely, the lack of validation of their feelings of pain.

That is greater real emotional intimacy than Buffy has ever permitted herself and Spike to feel except for moments like AfterLife.

As for Xander and Anya, I couldn't say really, but we haven't seen much of it on screen. Xander admits to Willow and Buffy in Normal Again that he is better when Anya is in his life. But that seemed to me to be a revelation to him during his post-wedding jaunt. I doubt there is much articulated sharing between the two of them. He's usually impatient of Anya's honesty.

I also note that Anya thanked Spike for listening to her, for understanding her, for letting her reveal herself honestly to Spike. It seems to be the first time she has been able to do that, perhaps, ever.

I might be wrong here, but it may also be the first time that anyone recognized and thanked Spike for helping them with their personal pain. Buffy certainly never did in Flooded or Life Serial. It scared her too much or she took it for granted. Although she kept coming back for it. Which was a kind of inarticulate thanks I guess.

[> [> [> [> Re: Why are people surprised at Spike's empathy? (Spoilers, Entropy) -- Rattletrap, 11:38:47 05/02/02 Thu

I agonized over the word "mitigated" in that post because I'm not sure it's exactly what I meant, but it was as close as I could come and I'm not sure I can do any better now. I think Spike genuinely empathized (sympathized might be better) with Anya, but most of what he says in the first half of that conversation really concerns his relationship with Buffy and only indirectly relates to Anya's plight. I tend to think that Spike is more concerned with his own pain than with Anya's, even right to the very end. I'm sure there are those who will disagree with me on this, but after rewatching the episode I'm more convinced than ever. I'm not sure this is a better explanation, but it may slightly clarify what I meant.

[> [> [> [> [> Re: Why are people surprised at Spike's empathy? (Spoilers, Entropy) -- alcibiades, 11:55:09 05/02/02 Thu

"I tend to think that Spike is more concerned with his own pain than with Anya's, even right to the very end."

Well, to be fair, most of us are at a time when we are hurting intensely. Does this mitigate what goes on, or make it the human condition? I don't think it mitigates Spike's empathy, because unfortunately for most of us I suspect it is our own profound pain that teaches us to empathise profoundly with the pain of others.

I read the scene differently.

I think it starts out equally, explicitly about both of their pain and neither of them is truly listening to the other. But the fact that Spike knows intimately the horribility of feeling all those feelings, and that he admits this to Anya, (as opposed to doing the Scooby denial routine) is what triggers the true revelation of self at the end. The conversation doesn't plateau, it moves both of them ultimately.

[> [> No I don't! (Spoilers, Entropy) -- Marie, 01:40:22 05/03/02 Fri

You look at Spike as a human who can be redeemed...

So please don't put words into my mouth. I have always seen Spike as the vampire he is. However interesting I find him as a character, and however sympathetic I find his journey, I've never seen him as human. I'm not a shipper, either, although, hey, if he knocked on my door... ahem... where was I? Oh, yes. I personally would like to see him do good without the chip, but it would be just as interesting to me if things went the other way, and we get to see how he and Buffy interact if he turned bad again, now he knows her inside and out, so to speak.

I'm interested in your use of the word 'manipulation'. I do see Spike as manipulating people if he thinks he can get away with it (Hey, evil!), but this has nothing to do with his 'getting to the heart of the matter', in my opinion. What I meant by that was the way he cut off people when they were waffling (go back and watch 'Pangs' again - the argument Willow and Buffy were having over the Pilgrim fathers), or simply unwilling to acknowledge their feelings and those of others (the infamous 'Love's Bitch' speech).

This programme just gets more interesting to me. I can't wait 'til S7!


Marie

[> I'm not surprised, but suspicious (Spoilers, Entropy) -- JBone, 19:52:33 05/01/02 Wed

What's in it for Spike? But he probably already got his reward by getting a roll in the hay with Anya and sticking it to Xander at the same time.

[> [> Re: I'm not surprised, but suspicious (Spoilers, Entropy) -- Deeva, 23:47:14 05/01/02 Wed

I'm not of the suspicious mind in this case. I just saw it as 2 people (and don't quibble about the people part. Too lazy to go into the massive description that is Spike & Anya.) looking to drown their sorrows, take the edge off the pain. Course, it didn't really work. It just got them into a another level of misery.


Parallels between BtVS and AtS (Spoilers up to Entropy and The Price) -- agent156, 09:13:41 05/01/02 Wed

Through reading some of the posts, a couple of parallels between the two shows came to me.

Both Anya and Angel have been betrayed. Anya by Xander who left her at the altar, and Angel by Wesley who took his son. In being so hurt, each has reacted quite similarly - by turning to their demon side to deal with the situation. Anya's way of deling was to go back to being a vengence demon with the intent of getting her revenge on Xander. Angel dealt by using kidnapping and torture (which to me just drips of Angelus) in an attempt to get his son back. The human part of each of them is in a lot of pain, and they are both using their demon-ness to try to alleviate it.

And those who did the betrayal, Xander and Wesley, both felt that they were doing the only thing that they could. Xander had strong fears about his future and seeing those visions only brought them to the forefront. As he saw it, he had to call off the wedding because even though it would hurt Anya now it would spare her the worse hurt that would come if he didn't. Wes felt that by taking Connor he was saving him from Angel. While he knew that it would hurt Angel, he thought it was the right thing to do since it would spare him more pain in the long run.

I love how these two shows can take similar themes and still handle them in such different ways.

(Probably not very insightful, but that's about the best I can do.)

[> Re: Parallels between BtVS and AtS (Spoilers up to Entropy and The Price) -- LittleBit, 14:17:57 05/01/02 Wed

And the most distressing parallel of them all:

Both these tragic situations could have been prevented with a bit of open and direct communication.

[heavy sigh]


entropy -- skeeve, 11:48:14 05/01/02 Wed

To me, Entropy was hilarious.
Though Anyanka's ineffectual wishing just seemed nasty and sad, her efforts to find someone to wish painful things on Xander was truly choice.
Her description of what turned out to be Jack Daniels was less choice because it didn't last as long.
The Willow and Tara reunion reminded me of a scene from Taxi in which someone names the stages of the grieving process as another person in back of him goes through said stages as they are named. It finished with a humorous in context statement about how long grieving takes.
I also liked Spike's `ladies last', but that might just indicate a low threshold of amusement.

Xander's belief that Spike planted the camera might have been reasonable. Buffy's wasn't. Buffy has stated her low opinion of Spike's competence and Spike hasn't been noted for his use of electronic equipment.

One of the sad things about Xander and Anya is that their problem could have been solved by a little conversation. Xander needn't worry about turning into his father. Anya would never tolerate his father. Spike's little revelation is probably the reason that the Xander and Anya marriage is still possible. At the moment, Xander is judging Buffy by sex with Spike. If he changes to judging sex with Spike by Buffy, Anya becomes acceptable and desirable again.

We learned a little about the physics of vengeance demons. Apparently the wisher needn't be human. Spike qualified. Halfrek apparently didn't qualify. Halfrek knew Anyanka was a vengeance demon. That seems to be the difference. The wisher has to be ignorant of the consequences. It seems to me that Anyanka's persistence with Dawn was a bit risky. Had Anyanka kept at it much longer, Dawn might well have wished that there were no vengeance demons.

[> I liked it too (spoilers) -- mundusmundi, 15:32:15 05/01/02 Wed

Emma Caulfield was terrific, maybe the best she's ever been. She's moved beyond the one-joke greedy girl and is tapping into the dramatic promise she showed in her acclaimed scene in "The Gift."

At the same time, she is continuing to be a crack comic comedienne. Her bit with Michelle Trachtenberg was classic shtick.

Xander's belief that Spike planted the camera might have been reasonable. Buffy's wasn't. Buffy has stated her low opinion of Spike's competence and Spike hasn't been noted for his use of electronic equipment.

Hmmm, Spike did use a videocamera in S2. Basically agree, though. Buffy appeared skeptical herself.

One of the sad things about Xander and Anya is that their problem could have been solved by a little conversation. Xander needn't worry about turning into his father. Anya would never tolerate his father. Spike's little revelation is probably the reason that the Xander and Anya marriage is still possible. At the moment, Xander is judging Buffy by sex with Spike. If he changes to judging sex with Spike by Buffy, Anya becomes acceptable and desirable again.

Will be interesting to see which he thinks is worse. Xander looked almost as appalled about Buffy as he did Anya.

We learned a little about the physics of vengeance demons. Apparently the wisher needn't be human. Spike qualified. Halfrek apparently didn't qualify. Halfrek knew Anyanka was a vengeance demon. That seems to be the difference. The wisher has to be ignorant of the consequences. It seems to me that Anyanka's persistence with Dawn was a bit risky. Had Anyanka kept at it much longer, Dawn might well have wished that there were no vengeance demons.

I was wondering about this. Makes sense to me now that you've explained it. Thanks.

[> [> Re: I liked it too (spoilers) -- LittleBit, 17:50:57 05/01/02 Wed

Regarding the wisher being ignorant of the consequences, Anyanka used to be worshipped and called actively. In the WishVerse Giles used a specific spell to summon her -- she was incensed that a male had used the spell. I think maybe vengeance demons can't grant wishes for each other, which would explain Halfrek not offering to grant Anyanka's wish.

[> [> [> ignorance -- skeeve, 09:57:50 05/02/02 Thu

LittleBit: "Anyanka used to be worshipped and called actively."

When WishVerse Giles called her, he didn't get a wish. It might be that women who summoned Anyanka didn't know that they had succeeded until they had a wish granted.
If ignorance is not necessary, then pressing Dawn was even more dangerous than I thought.

An interesting question is what limits there are on for whom a vengeance demon can grant wishes. Anyanka's search for a wish suggests that she needn't restrict herself to someone scorned. Is Halfrek restricted to children?

I'd forgotten Spike's videocamera in S1. Even so, it was a bit more off the shelf than the set up Buffy found. Did Buffy know about it?


The Descent of Xander (not an alaysis,but more of a fear. oh and Spoilers for Entropy) -- AngelVSAngelus, 12:33:06 05/01/02 Wed

There's a trend that I continue to notice, but have lost my fear and agitation for because its no longer new or surprising: dislike of the character Xander. I seem to be the minority that has always enjoyed his character from the very beginning, not only considering him the heart of the group, but often its moral compass in times of indecision on everyone else's part.
No surprise, then, that I defend him tenaciously to this day, but I find an odd feeling in the pit of my stomach when I do these days, and I think I've identified it. Its that the current turn for him has left a distaste for him in my mouth as well. Its truly disturbing.
I think with his questioning of Spike's manhood, his goading him to get back up and fight him back, his 'racism' expressed against demon lovers, we the audience are meant to see that Xander is turning into what he fears the most: his father. Now, that's not just disconcerting because I love his character and it pains me. That's disconcerting because, like Xander, much of what defines my integrity and morality is being the inverse of who my Father is.
when I watch this show normally I see characters with paralels to my life, people that I can relate to triumphing over the very struggles that scare me. This gives me the hope and strength to do so in reality, and while that's not dictated by the goings on in a fictitious world, seeing Xander's situation sort of confronts me with my own fear on an episodic basis.
It scares me. Does ANYONE out there like Xander too? ANYONE?

[> Re: The Descent of Xander (not an alaysis,but more of a fear. oh and Spoilers for Entropy) -- MaeveRigan, 12:43:19 05/01/02 Wed

So sue me--I like Xander too. But I suspect maybe we're being encouraged not to like him just now. In fact, aren't ALL the Scoobies showing us their dark sides? Raise your hands if you really like any of them 100% just now? It's all right--all part of ME's diabolical plot.

Last season, Buffy died physically. This season, everyone gets to die emotionally. In some ways, its worse, but I fully expect most of them to return, maybe better than before.

Maybe especially Xander.

I love a show that takes risks. Probably explains why most of my favorite shows (except Buffy) have been cancelled before 3 seasons finished.

[> [> Xander and the Way the World Is Now -- cjl, 13:02:25 05/01/02 Wed

One point about "Entropy" before I close my yap and wait six more agonizing days for "Seeing Red."

About Xander...

Even if I agreed 100% with the "Spike Is Evil" vampire determinists (which I don't) Xander's behavior would still concern me greatly. OK, let's say the determinists are right--Spike is an evil, soul-less vampiric pit bull who happens to have a chip for a collar. Still...is Xander's smacking around a chipped vampire whenever he feels like it really doing XANDER any good?

Joss and his crew are painfully aware that one of the big problems in the world today is the inability of a select group of people to see the humanity within another select group of people. We have examples EVERYWHERE: the Israelis and the Palestinians, Muslims and Hindus within India, the mess in Yugoslavia, the Eritrean conflict, the Hutus and the Tutsis (in the name of God, please stop me). A certain line of propaganda is set up in each camp (some of it based on legitimate grievance), reducing the Other to little more than demonic ciphers, thus excusing whatever heinous act is necessary to reduce the enemy to rubble. The problem is, of course, that in performing these heinous acts, the "aggrieved" party loses its own humanity in the process.

For the record: yes, Xander has lived by "vampires = evil" since Year 1, Episode 1. His best friend, Jesse, died horribly and the creature who wore Jesse's face laughed at Xander's anguish. His grudge against Spike--well, don't get me started here. But the fact is, Xander has seen Spike's grey area in full flower during the whole of Season 5 and the start of Season 6. At some points--during "Intervention" and "Spiral," for instance--I would almost classify him as sympathetic towards Spike's situation. But as his own life situation has deteriorated since "Hell's Bells," he's played the new Scooby parlor game, Kick the Spike, with almost as much passion as Buffy.

The Mutant Enemy crew has been setting up parallels between Xander and Spike all season long, and they're crafting a deliciously ironic situation: the more Xander gives in to his rage against Spike, the more he risks TURNING INTO what he believes Spike to be. Ignoring his better instincts, and lashing out against the soul-less inhuman monster, he threatens his own humanity.

I could do a 300-page post on why I think Xander's TV reception only gets a black and white picture. But it would dredge up too much personal material, and I don't want to bore my fellow board members with my own neuroses. (OK, I do, but I possess the quality of mercy.) And in the end, it doesn't matter. Xander has to work past his nightmare childhood and demonic family and self-image problems and WHATEVER and make his choice: he has come to the point where he has to see the humanity in the Other if he's to find it in himself.

To those who don't care about Xander's journey and dismiss it as irrelevant--IMO, Xander's journey is VERY IMPORTANT. He's always been the Everyman of the group, and this horrible, painful situation emphasizes his Everyman qualities more than ever: All over the world today, here and abroad, millions of people are faced with Xander's choice. I think we all have a vested interest in what that choice is going to be.

[> [> [> Re: Xander, his women, projection and the Way the World Is Now -- Caroline, 13:45:40 05/01/02 Wed

Very insightful post. I, too, like Xander (in fact there's no-one on the show I dislike) and I feel that in Entropy he hit rock-bottom. From Xander's point of view he got betrayed by Anya when she slept with Spike. He was going off at her about sleeping with an evil soulless thing until he learns that Buffy also did the deed. This is even more of a crisis for him because Buffy is the heroic and unattainable, the woman he has idealized and placed upon a pedastal and now she goes and does something that, in his mind, is completely reprehensible. The projection that he has of Buffy as heroic and perfect has come crashing down in his worldview.

So now, all these things he has believed in about Anya and Buffy have proved to exist only inside his own head. This is actually a good thing because his perceptions and beliefs about both women have been, imho, skewed. Neither of these women is solely what he is projecting onto them and if he can see them for what they really are, he will have a better chance to rebuild relationships with them that are based on his perceptions of who they really are, not what he wishes them to be. And, if he does that, the scenario of the future that was revealed to him in Hells Bells would have much less likelihood of occuring. That is, if he has relationships with Anya and Buffy based on who they are, his fears about the future will have less predictive power.

Furthermore, Anya made some very valid points about his lack of maturity, his lack of self-expression and he himself realized that he has not been very self-aware. He's made the first step in realizing he needs to look at himself, he just has to do it on a deeper level than he previously thought was necessary.

I feel these comments about Xander apply to several of the scoobies right now. Willow and Tara seem to be okay for the moment but the Xander/Anya/Buffy/Spike pairings have all had certain perceptions come crashing down on them and need to do the work to see themselves and each other more clearly before they do as Tara says, which is put in the work and build or rebuild the trust that is necessary for love to flourish.

Buffy made good points about not trusting enough to love him - she can't allow herself to be involved with someone she doesn't trust. Whatever else Buffy is denying, she shows here a good understanding of her own needs and boundaries and also shows that she has learnt something from her previous relationships.

[> [> [> [> Re: Xander, his women, projection and the Way the World Is Now -- Sophist, 13:54:05 05/01/02 Wed

Good points about Xander's view of the women around him. I would add that he needs also to realize that he is seeing himself only through projections and fears, namely, those of his father. If he can see himself as he is, rather than as what he fears he might become (and is fast in danger of becoming), he can gain the maturity to re-build the relationships he has lost.

[> [> [> [> Have to disagree- Buffy doesn't trust anyone -- Spike Lover, 15:13:35 05/01/02 Wed

All men leave. She will trust Spike with her life or her family's life, etc or with her secrets, but not w/ her heart.

Buffy does not know anything about herself yet. She fears the fire.

[> [> [> [> [> Huh? -- Caroline, 09:34:55 05/02/02 Thu

I'm a bit confused by your response. I'm not saying that Buffy does trust anyone, I'm saying that she doesn't trust Spike and therefore a relationship with them will not be possible until she does. I'm not saying that Buffy is a poster girl for psychological clarity but she's certainly right about trust in relationships. As for speculation about the future, and your assumption about all men leaving, we'll have to wait and see. But I personally feel that Buffy really has to come to grips with her relationship to Spike because a lot of it has to do with coming to grips with herself. In that way, it's supremely unimportant to me whether Spike leaves or stays or whether they ever consummate their relationship again, what is important is the self-transformation that hopefully will come as they deal with themselves and their attitudes about each other.

[> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Huh? -- Spike Lover, 15:05:16 05/02/02 Thu

It has been noted on this board before that Buffy has trust/abandonment issues w/ men. She trusted Angel most, and he went evil on her; later he left her (at graduation). Riley left her. Her father is a no-show. Giles left her. The friends she has continues this life lesson: Xander left Anya. Tara left Willow. Oz left Willow.

It was suggested during Smashed, that the other half of Spike's line during their verbal sparring was... Afraid to give me the chance (to hurt you)? Afraid - (that I will leave-)?

I think this is exactly what one of B's great fears is and why she kept Riley at bay last season.

In truth, she does trust Spike. She trusted him with her family and friends' lives. She trusted him to keep her confidences. She trusted him to keep his mouth shut about their sexual trysts.

He has proven himself. This is just another excuse she is using because she does not want to work through her own pain. -Very human of her.

In truth, the only way B may be able to be involved w/ Spike is to tell herself that it means nothing. That way, if he leaves or if it goes badly, she can say 'I am not hurt because he meant nothing to me.'

[> [> [> [> I have a question for women -- JBone, 20:41:25 05/01/02 Wed

He was going off at her about sleeping with an evil soulless thing until he learns that Buffy also did the deed. This is even more of a crisis for him because Buffy is the heroic and unattainable, the woman he has idealized and placed upon a pedestal and now she goes and does something that, in his mind, is completely reprehensible.

I consider myself a complete idiot when it comes to women. Do women really hate to be "put on a pedestal?" Do they hate to be worshiped by the mongrels that we y chromosomes are? We men, often feel the need to make absolute asses out of ourselves to prove ourselves, does this mean nothing? Or maybe you have to be Spike to pull all this off. All other men need not attempt. I guess I'm just stupified.

[> [> [> [> [> Re: I have a question for women -- LittleBit, 21:28:47 05/01/02 Wed

Answering for myself only...

I have flaws *gasp!*

I don't want to be on a pedestal, I want to be accepted as I am. And I don't buy into "this is how I am take it or leave it" because then I am stating that I have no intention of changing and growing. I believe that my part of that acceptance is to work on reducing those flaws. The problem with a pedestal is that movement is limited, the pedestal is too confining. I want room for movement and growth. And if it's high enough, a slip from it can be devastating.

Admittedly, I want to be admired for my good qualities. But I want to be allowed my flaws as well. In return, I will try to be a better person and I will allow you your flaws as well. Together, we can come to a point where the give and take becomes fairly equitable.

I also think this applies to any relationship to some degree. It is particularly important in personal relationships such as family and friends, not just romance.

Well, that's one person's opinion. And I'm certain I don't speak for all womankind.

[> [> [> [> [> [> ITA! LittleBit, you said it more eloquently than I would have! -- Sulis, 22:11:40 05/01/02 Wed


[> [> [> [> [> [> women on pedestals -- lulabel, 22:42:09 05/01/02 Wed

Yes, LittleBit expressed very well the objections one might have to being put on a pedestal, particularly on a personal level. I wanted to extrapolate a little more on one statement she made:

The problem with a pedestal is that movement is limited, the pedestal is too confining. I want room for movement and growth.

This is true not just for the individual, but also for women as a group. In the last century or so, the times during which the concept of "womenhood" was most idealized were also the times during which women as a group were most restricted in personal freedom. The most extreme case in recent history being Victorian England, where middle and upper class women were so protected that they rarely set foot outside of the home. This need for protection was seated in the belief that women were pure and fragile. (any one who knows anything about the reality of childbirth knows what a pile of poo-poo this is!) More recently, in the 1950's, women were idealized as Wife and Mother - which was basically a way of getting women who worked during the war to leave their jobs and return to the home.

So while at first glance it may not seem bad to idealize someone, it can have ramifications not only on the personal level, but in a greater social context. One way or another, you are ultimately restricting that person's ability or choice to be who they want to be.

[> [> [> [> [> Re: I have a question for women -- parakeet, 02:10:48 05/02/02 Thu

I almost feel that I should leave this alone, because LittleBit's respose was so eloquent. However, that would be assuming way too much common sense on my part.
Why is it wrong to be chivalrous? Well, it isn't exactly. The crux is your intention, and I don't just mean the intention that you tell yourself. Are you seeing the object of your desire as a person? A full-fledged human being with faults and annoying habits as well as virtues? We all have the right to be people, to be human beings, messy as they are. There's nothing wrong with appreciating the good aspects of someone (indeed, there's nothing wrong with poeticizing it -- did I spell that right? -- and being passionate about it). The problem is when you insist that the other must be an ideal. This isn't just unfair; it's sick. What are you in love with if not the person? It's like being obsessed with a carnival mirror image of yourself. It's like being in love with yourself, but without your own faults. It's hideously selfish, while pretending to be the height of virtue.
Of course, this isn't to say that I dislike passion, amour, or dreaming of things grand and fabulous. I'm just saying that you should always treat people as people and not as archtypes.

[> [> [> [> [> Re: I have a question for women -- Arethusa, 07:26:19 05/02/02 Thu

Elizabeth Peters wrote that men put women on pedastals so they would have to remain perfectly still. Almost all women want the freedom to make mistakes, take risks, be goofy, fail and try again. Idealizing and objectifying sets everyone up for great disappointments, and puts unnecessary pressure on both men and women. Being worshipped isn't as complementary as being respected and loved.
And a guy doesn't have to look like a model or be uber- charming to attract women. There is nothing more seductive than a guy (or girl) who really listens and pays attention to you.

[> [> [> [> [> Re: I have an answer -- SingedCat, 09:18:08 05/02/02 Thu

All I can tell you is what has happened for me. I had a very meaningful relationship with a man I also greatly admired. It wasn't until years later that I realized my idealizing of him was what hurt our relationship most, and our accepting each other's faults that made us the strongest.

I had this realization, of course, by getting into a relationship with a man who idealized me.

It's a little hard to explain this, JBone, and I've just deleted three paragraphs of trying. He was very sweet to me, we went places, had similar interests, and common friends. He talked about his dreams and desires. Upon occasion, he made me cheesecake. There was good stuff there to go on, but we never...went on. He seemed to have all that he needed with my just being there, which sounds incredibly romantic unless you have a brain. He knew the landscape of his own feelings, but never tried to enter mine. He never disagreed with my views, or asked about them; there were no intellectual disagreements, or even avid discussions. He wanted us to remain in this romantic, first impression limbo, and I felt like a fraud, a cipher, as though the person he was making love to was a paper cutout standing somwhere between us. I wasn't what he thought I was, I was me, and if you've never had the experience of having the person closest to you not know you at all-- well, let's say the odds in the world may be against that. And it was impossible to fix-- he had no idea what I was talking about.

See, it doesn't really matter if the person you're with is seeing you as *better* or *worse* than you really are; the alienation is the same. Maybe that's why Kurt Cobain blew his head off. So what I'm saying is, pedestal-attitude might get you a first date, or even a second, but if you are ultimately unwilling to see and accept the other, cats and all, then you'll never achieve intimacy. Take my advice-- deal with the cats.

(or is the expression warts and all?)

[> [> [> [> [> [> Re: I have an answer -- skeeve, 10:56:08 05/02/02 Thu

Is SingedCat a dog person?

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> Me Cat Person- She Who Deals With Cats. :D -- SingedCat, 16:44:42 05/03/02 Fri


[> [> [> Re: Xander and the Way the World Is Now -- Anne, 13:56:06 05/01/02 Wed

I have always liked Xander; indeed, to me he was the only character who was fully three dimensional right from the very beginning, even in Season 1.

Although he is certainly hard to like right now, especially vis a vis Spike, with whom God help me I identify more than anybody, I really love your analysis -- in fact, both the above analyses -- of what's happening with him. It actually gives me some hope:

"...he has come to the point where he has to see the humanity in the Other if he's to find it in himself. "

Just brilliant. And I really hope that's what they have him do.

And I really hope they have something just as brilliant planned for Buffy. Because to me, right now, she's not too far behind Xander in her righteousness and intolerance.

[> [> [> Re: Xander and the Way the World Is Now -- Rattletrap, 14:46:52 05/01/02 Wed

Interesting post, cjl.

I'll add my voice to the chorus of Xander-defenders and throw my $.02 into this discussion:

Xander's attack on Spike didn't do anybody any good, but that was never the point. This was an act of pure passion and rage; not the calculated decision of someone in full command of his faculties. Despite Xander's occasional warming toward Spike, the two have never liked each other. While Xander's worldview is frequently manichean, he comes by it honestly. A quick re-watching of "School Hard," "Lover's Walk," "The Yoko Factor," and "Crush" should indicate that Xander has ample reason to dislike and distrust Spike, and occasional agreement or civility between the two of them is unlikely to change that.

cjl wrote:
"To those who don't care about Xander's journey and dismiss it as irrelevant--IMO, Xander's journey is VERY IMPORTANT. He's always been the Everyman of the group, and this horrible, painful situation emphasizes his Everyman qualities more than ever: All over the world today, here and abroad, millions of people are faced with Xander's choice. I think we all have a vested interest in what that choice is going to be."

I agree entirely, and a very good point.

'trap

[> [> [> Cjl - once again we agree! and OT: Dawn Pandora -- shadowkat, 18:12:46 05/01/02 Wed

Praying this posts, having the worst time today.

As you know - you and I already agree on where the season
is heading and why. We both forsaw what was happening with
poor dear Willow and Tara. And we both agree on Xander.
Very important character. And very pivotal. Can't wait to see where they take him. Outside of Spike, he's the other one I can't quite predict. Except I agree with your take completely - please feel free to email me any analysises you have on Xander. You and Linda D's analyses on Willow
were brillant and inspired me to start my own posts.

Now about Dawn - in your Pandora post, where you so kindly quoted my OAFA analysis,you asked if I thought there was more than just a metaphor going on here and possibly a psychic connection as well. To be honest at the time I did the post - I really wasn't sure. Now after reading yours and thinking on it - I beginning to think there might be.
It certainly works metaphorically. I also think you may be onto something regarding Dawn's keyness and her breaking down of the interior barriers within each character.

There has been a lot of speculation about Buffy being pregnant on the boards. I don't agree with this thesis.
Why? Because I've thought for some time that Buffy already had a child - Dawn. In Listening to Fear, Season 5, Joyce
almost says it. "She's not mine - but she is part of us"
and Buffy says it in the gift - "She's me, she's part of
me - it's more than physical". Of all the SG, Spike is the only one who appears to get this. He relates to Dawn with the same compassion and protective spirit that he relates to Buffy. If Connor is Angel's son - I think Dawn may be
Buffy's daughter - as was predicted by Faith in Graduation Day Part II - regarding the kitty, B:"who will take care of
it" F: "these things take care of themselves" B"is it a boy"
F:"No it's a girl" (not exact but close). Then again by
Tara in Restless : "Be Back Before DAwn" - whose bed is
Buffy sleeping in in Restless? Dawn's. Who did the Monks
make Dawn out of? Buffy. Another interesting point - when did Spike discover he loved Buffy? After Dawn appeared on the scene. When does Buffy realize Spike actually does care - in Intervention when he protects Dawn. Who does spike
protect with his life in the Gift? Dawn. In Bargaining -
who does Spike protect? Dawn. If Buffy is gone - Spike is
protecting Dawn.

I'll probably write a post on this soon, but I see lots of
interesting dualities this season and pairings, particularly
surrounding the number three. What's that saying? Things
come in threes? Send out pain and it comes back to you
at the power of three?

Spike/Dawn/Buffy - there's a definite connection.
Spike/Dawn are both left out of Bargaining ritual for the same reason - if Buff came back wrong they wouldn't allow Willow to get rid of her.
In bargaining Spike/Dawn are paired.
The Spike/Dawn pairing doesn't really end until Buffy appears, Then it becomes Buffy/Spike or Buffy/Dawn.
(See Afterlife).

Also OAFA - who is trying to get out of the house and who releases the demon? B/T/X (release the demon) - W/S/A are
trying to get out. Instead of releasing W/S/A, they release
the demon. While Dawn sits upstairs sobbing b/c they've left
her alone.

so if Dawn is the key to the emotional breakdowns of the
Scoobs, breakdowns that were all btw predicted in Restless along with the coming of Dawn, then what's the cure?
The worst breakdowns are Spike, Willow and Xander, because
I think those characters have the most schizoid personalities. Spike is hiding William (he is Giles in reverse), Willow is hiding DarkWillow (she is similar
in some ways to Catherine Madison in Witch), Xander is
hiding the racist father or if you like the Dr. Jekyl
and Mr. Hyde Beast from Beauty and the Beasts, the Hyena
inside himself.

Think again about Restless - cjl. Three times Xander says
he won't go upstairs and the third time his heart is removed causing him to miss Anya's big day and push up the daisies. Three times Willow is told to remove her custom, on the third try, Buffy rips it off her and her spirit
is removed, leaving her choking. Three times Buffy rejects the hands and she ends up on the floor wrestling with the
slayer who is trying to stab her in the gut. And what does
Tara say: Be Back Before Dawn. What does warren's robot,
April say: It's always darkest before the...
Something tells me you're onto something. It's so much fun to have another mind work on the jigsaw puzzel that is BTVS with me.


anyways hope that made sense...and thanks again for your wonderful posts. Your one of the reasons I keep coming back to the boards.
best 'kat

[> Re: The Descent of Xander (not an alaysis,but more of a fear. oh and Spoilers for Entropy) -- Goji3, 13:04:05 05/01/02 Wed

You make some very good points AVA. I to, am a Xander-fan. you've pretty much hit the nail on the head with what he's experiencing right now.

He's slowly becoming his father, despite, or perhaps because of, his efforts not to.

Xander's "Hate" of demons is perfectly understandable considering what has happened to him (IE: Jesse, Several Monsters wanting to copulate with/kill him).

And, In a repeat of "When She Was Bad", Buffy has once again fallen of Xander's high pedastle he set up for her in his heart. he respected her, now...

God, Anya sure got her revenge alright...worse than anything a wish could bring.

And on the subject of Fathers, I have to admit that many things he does offend my own moral compase (he's a Lawyer, so, that doesn't help either). However, there are aspects to him that I do find admirable. - Just for the record.

Well, this proves it, Love can not work on the Hellmouth. (purpously ignoring Tara/Willow for this point).

[> [> Wedding nightmare -- Spike Lover, 15:19:34 05/01/02 Wed

Remember in X's wedding day nightmare, Anya had had an affair with a demon; (one child had demon traits.) This latest infidelity may reinforce his fears.

[> Re: The Descent of Xander (not an alaysis,but more of a fear. oh and Spoilers for Entropy) -- Can I be Anne?, 14:10:10 05/01/02 Wed

I also really enjoy Xander's character. His struggles, his use of humor to make up for percieved shortcomings, his relationship with his father, have really rang true for me. When he didn't go to college with the rest of the group it was one of the few times that the show has touched on issues of class(I wish ME would do more here but I'm loathe to complain too much)
This season, I've really been dismayed by what I've seen happen. I may not like Anya much(so help me out here) but I really don't understand why X/A were ever in love. I don't get what they have in common, how they're at all compatible. Xander's battle cry since season 5 has been "Sorry, but she's my girlfriend. It's my job to defend her"
Then, as he fought with Spike, I nearly felt chills, hearing him taunt Spike to get up, to fight. Attacking Spike is like abusing a child. He's completely unable to defend himself! Family redux much? Spike was a third party, outside of their relationship. It was really not his responsibility to make Anya be faithful. This is a weakness I really want to see Xander overcome.

[> [> Re: The Descent of Xander (not an alaysis,but more of a fear. oh and Spoilers for Entropy) -- Rattletrap, 14:50:05 05/01/02 Wed

"When he didn't go to college with the rest of the group it was one of the few times that the show has touched on issues of class(I wish ME would do more here but I'm loathe to complain too much)"

I agree, a very good point. I think that subtle tension is always there, just beneath the surface, in all of Xander's relations with the SG.

[> [> Re: Xander: class and other issues -- valkyrie, 15:52:17 05/01/02 Wed

Your comment reminded me of one of my least favorite Xander comments this season. In Double Meat Palace, Dawn realized that Buffy might be doomed to nothing but menial jobs, never having the opportunity to be a professional. Xander rather cruelly (I thought)quipped that in that case Dawn would have to go to college and get a good job so she could support her "deadbeat" sister. I agree that Xander has some real feelings of class inferiority.

I used to be so fond of Xander; he made me laugh out loud. Unfortunately, my affection over the last season or two has seriously eroded. He's become a bully, whose humor is too often at other's expense.

(Oh, dear this is turning into a longer post than I'd planned.) In total agreement with the post that started this thread. I think a major theme of the season has been the Demon/Human conflict as a metaphor for the racial/ethnic/religious schisms of real life. "Hells Bells" underscored the contempt in which the humans, especially the Harrises, hold those who are "freaks" or Other. The clash of cultures was explicit.

[> [> [> deadbeat -- skeeve, 13:09:28 05/02/02 Thu

This one took the deadbeat sister comment as a poor and poorly timed attempt at humor. Considering Buffy's death rate, it's not even obvious that she will be around when Dawn grows up.

[> Re: Who likes Xander? I do! (SPOILERS for Entropy) -- mundusmundi, 15:03:42 05/01/02 Wed

I've always enjoyed his character and have been annoyed at his underuse in recent seasons. Glad to see him back in action, though, even if it means behaving badly. I just find the character very real, and that's heartening from a dramatic standpoint (which is what really interests me) if not from a moral standpoint (which basically doesn't).

On a semi-related note, I came to an epiphany yesterday that Nick Brendon has always been my barometer for the quality of the series. When he looks bored (and his eyes don't lie), I'm usually in agreement regarding the episode, and not just the ones where he has little to do. But lately, at the end of "Hell's Bells" and in all of "Normal Again" and "Entropy," I've seen him regain his focus as an actor. That's encouraging to see, for both the character and the show.

[> i like Xander -- Liz, 15:33:10 05/01/02 Wed

I've always liked Xander. I'm intrigued that people are saying how this episode calls up faults he has always had. I've always liked him. In looking over seasons 1-4 I think the might be the most admirable character there, because he just keeps trying. Even though he has no powers or talents, even though he's constantly thinking that he doesn't do anything real, he still insists on trying, on helping. It made perfect sense to me to call him the heart. He's afraid that he doesn't help, but I think that every time he told a silly joke and everyone glared at him, he helped. I think they all would have spiraled into despair and a serious, warfare mentality without him.

However, now they all have spiraled away. Including Xander. I'm really not sure what to make of this. Honestly, I'm wavering between "the writers have lost it" and "the message is, growing up makes you rigid, blind, and miserable." But that's a generalized season 6 thing and I hadn't meant to get into that.

I had great sympathy for Xander when he left the wedding. And I think that if that's the way he felt, he should not have gotten married. And I felt sorry for him for being an idiot about it, as he said, and not sparing her that nightmare of being left at the altar. I feel sorry for Anya and sorry for Xander and it's just a tragic situation.

However. When he then decided for them both that they were still together, and when he then attacked the person she slept with, I had no sympathy. I don't erase my previous sympathy, I don't hate him now, but he was simply being a dick and I don't excuse it. "What, you don't want to get married but you still want to date?" Buffy asked him disbelievingly, and that's what he thinks is going on. He thinks he still has some kind of rights over her-- and that's not such a great way to think even if they WERE together. The thing she could do to hurt him more than anything in the world is sleep with Spike? Those priorities seem a little screwed up.

[> [> Well said. He does act as if this is a speed bump rather than a derailment -- Spike Lover, 16:30:08 05/01/02 Wed


[> [> Re: Xander & the entropic gyre -- MaeveRigan, 06:38:44 05/02/02 Thu

Liz wrote:
"However, now they all have spiraled away. Including Xander. I'm really not sure what to make of this. Honestly, I'm wavering between 'the writers have lost it' and 'the message is, growing up makes you rigid, blind, and
miserable.' "

Neither of the above. Yes, everyone is spiralling away, it LOOKS as if everything is out of control. But the writers haven't lost it--they're engineering that appearance of chaos. It's NOT growing up that makes you "rigid, blind, and miserable."

Good grief, folks, you'd think this was ep. 22, not ep. 18.

But the spiral metaphor is a good one (it's been used before- -B5). Tara refers to it in the last scene by quoting Yeats' "Second Coming":

Things fall apart; the center cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,
The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere
The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
The best lack all conviction, while the worst
Are full of passionate intensity. (3-8)

According to Yeats, everything spins out of control in a "gyre" of history before some significant event brings on a new cycle. We're seeing all the scoobies at their worst, most anarchic just now.

[> [> [> in total agree-age! -- ponygirl, 07:17:26 05/02/02 Thu

We have weeks of torture still to go! I think this is a season that once it's over we will all lean back and say, oh that's why that had to happen. It's just hard to have everything drawn out week by agonizing week.

Lovely use of Yeats btw. And so appropriate for this season.

[> [> [> Completely agree -- Caroline, 09:41:15 05/02/02 Thu

Very good points. It appears to me that everyone has to be brought to their lowest ebb before the transformation and positive changes can begin. We have to get rid of the misconceptions that prejudices that blind us - Buffy about herself and Spike, Xander about Anya and Buffy etc.

[> [> [> Re: Xander & the entropic gyre -- SingedCat, 10:37:56 05/02/02 Thu

I agree, people-- all this angst is the birth of their own adulthood coming at last. But on the Hellmouth...there are always consequences...

...I'm just waiting for what happens next:

"And what rough beast, its hour come round at last,
Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?"

[> [> [> [> Re: Xander & the entropic gyre -- pr10n, 13:15:44 05/02/02 Thu

>...I'm just waiting for what happens next:

>"And what rough beast, its hour come round at last,
>Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?"

Damn straight -- this has been the season for literary allusion.

[> [> [> the growing-up process -- anom, 18:14:22 05/02/02 Thu

"It's NOT growing up that makes you 'rigid, blind, and miserable.'"

And I'd say that growing up requires facing where you're rigid, blind, & miserable. Xander & the others are being brought face to face w/those things this season.

[> [> Easy target -- DaveW, 22:09:23 05/02/02 Thu

Xander's had it in for Spike ... well, pretty much for as long as the character has been on the show. I think it's important to remember that we as the audience have had a privileged look at Spike's interactions and relationships with the other characters. Xander never saw Spike: bond with Riley over Buffy; help/protect Dawn; watch Passions with Joyce; um ... interact with(?) Buffy; etc. There have been a few world-about-to-end Spike-Xander collaborations, true, but mostly Xander sees Spike as the embodiment of all that is evil. So he sees this inhuman entity he's not terribly fond of mounting his almost-but-not-quite wife whom he still cares about deeply and we expect him to react in a calm and mature manner? Right. Remember, because of Anya's not terribly clever ruse at the beginning of the ep, Xander thinks she might still want to work things out. Plus, looking at a few seconds of grainy video, it couldn't have been clear whether Spike was forcing the issue or if Anya was a willing participant. Hell, I knew he was gonna grab an axe (yes, I knew it would be an axe) and charge down there the minute Willow started pulling up vid feeds. Spike's an easy target for Xander's rage, but Xander's the easy target for criticism; cut him some slack.

[> Re: The Descent of Xander (not an alaysis,but more of a fear. oh and Spoilers for Entropy) -- Mando, 16:26:43 05/01/02 Wed

I love Xander. I have always found him to be the most likable character on the show. I don't think that Xander is 'Descending' any more then any other of the main characters on the show have this season. It's been a rough year all around and each one has done things that are extreemly selfish and regretable.

I am furthermore still not convinced that Xander leaving Anya was a bad thing. His only real 'crime' in my book, is, as he stated this eppisode, not telling her of his fears and feelings before the wedding day itself came.

Time and time again Anya has shown that she is not dedicated the the Scoobies in the same way that Xander is. She admitted once that she mostly just flipped pages when they were doing research, etc.

His decision to leave her reflects not only a fear of turning into his father, but (and I think more importantly) the realization that he will never, for any reason, give up on helping Buffy fight evil. He can never have a normal, married life so long as every chance he gets, he will run off to help save the world. "We help Buffy, That's what we do."

I think that ultimately, just as Willow is putting the pieces of herself back together, Xander, too will pull himself out of his current slump.

[> a Ramble with Spoilers that needs to live somerwhere -- fresne, 07:35:33 05/02/02 Thu

You know it's interesting the number of people that have called Spike and Anya's tryst (filled with tristesse/sadness) about revenge. I suppose because well, Xander says it's about revenge and Anya has been going on about revenge. However, in the normal scheme of things, there aren't cameras in the Magic Box. Just drunk people and pickled eye of chameleon (cheaper than newt)

Anya, who has always been posited as honest, gives three reasons: she's unhappy, she's drunk, Spike smells nice. It's about how she feels at that moment. I think about Anya when she was newly human, talking about all these new feelings. Apparently, when you become a vengeance demon, like when you become a vampire, who you were informs what you will become.

And once again I return to the concept of misdirected love, which is about: me, me, me.

Anya loves Xander and believes that he as rejected her because she is undesirable, there's something wrong
with her. Three years of remarks and comments come up into her head and won't go away.

Xander loves Anya and believes that she slept with Spike to get back at him. Won't marry Anya because there's something wrong with him.

Which is why I said that the final moments of the episode really struck me. Anya rejects vengeance. She's always championed it. Discussed it. Vengeance, which is ultimately about me, me, me. I want revenge on that for what they have done to me and mine. It's about me feeling better about me. When Anya said "Don't," that was moment right there. Her vision expanded and she saw Xander's pain in addition to her own. Here's where I see her becoming not human, she's been demonized, but an adult.

Xander's not there yet, because not only was he not able to articulate why he didn't want to marry Anya, the Heart wasn't able to see how his rejection would make Anya feel. Unattractive. Unloved. Demonic. A thing.

Which should in a natural progression bring us to Spike, but that way I will not tend today.

Okay, one slight detour. It's interesting that knowing that the Troika is after Buffy, Xander suggests Spike as the source of the camera. They know that the Troika is technologically advanced. That they have been following Buffy, studying her, consider themselves her arch-nemisis- es. Why Spike? Why now? As others have stated, and for whatever reason I'm compelled to restate, (probably to make this longer and more rambly) Spike is everything that Xander fears, resents, doesn't want to become. Slacker demon (well he doesn't have a job. Lives in a crypt beneath the earth, like a basement). Souless. Should be unloveable. How quickly Xander picks on the concept that Spike was there, like he Xander was there, for Anya to have sex with.

Somehow, I think of my favorite Jane Eyre quote, "Do you think, because I am poor, obscure, plain, and little, I am soulless and heartless? You think wrong! - I have as much soul as you-and full as much heart! And if God had gifted me with some beauty, and much wealth, I should have made it as hard for you to leave me, as it is now for me to leave you."

Not sure why. Spike as we are told relentlessly has no soul. Anya, I'm not really sure how that works. Xander has a soul, but keeps doing the walking bit. Perhaps it's the sense of the cry for the beloved to see the lover as someone of worth. And I consider Spike's body language in that final fighting scene. One shoulder higher. Arms pressed together. Turned slightly away from the entire group. Trying to protect himself from Xander's words.

While finally, I got to see Anya, not be whiny (tell your friends we're engaged), but the strong Anya she was in season 3. More than just learning to be human, Anya has more and more conformed to the idea that she isn't okay because of what she was/is. She's right, she did change herself for Xander. And Xander, if he really afraid that he's becoming a demon/his dad, needs the strong Anya (Cordelia, Faith, Buffy, etc.) to tell him to cut it out.

[> [> beautiful insight! -- ponygirl, 08:27:25 05/02/02 Thu


[> [> Anya's moment -- lulabel, 21:16:42 05/02/02 Thu

I loved your interpretation here, particularly about how Anya's "don't" being the moment where she becomes an adult, with the ability to see past me, me, me.

I think an equally critical moment in this episode is the final exchange between Tara and Willow, which was clearly not just a happy ending to cheer us all up. Tara has often provided guidance to the others in the group - here again she demonstrates the adult path. She acknowledges the pain and hurt between herself and Willow, as well as the rocky path that is still ahead. This scene is the perfect complement to Anya's moment - it is a hopeful foreshadowing of what may eventually come to pass with the other broken relationships.

I was also glad you commented on Spike's body language during that final confrontation. I was also intrigued by it because I would swear that Spike was not trying to defend himself in any way during his tussle with Xander. The most striking instant was when Xander whipped out the stake - Spike sees it and merely puffs up his chest and sticks out his chin WAITING FOR IT. Now the chip prevents Spike from fighting back, but he's certainly capable of shoving someone away ( I think is Afterlife he gave Xander a forceful shoving with barely a twinge) and he's certainly capable of outright running away. I have no idea how to interpret this lack of self defense - I'm interested to see if the shooting script gives any indication of my interpretation.

[> [> [> Re: Anya's moment -- ponygirl, 06:46:04 05/03/02 Fri

Spike's reaction to the stake actually reminded me of his dream in OOMM, where he simply tenses up and waits for the blow. Seems to speak to a similar state of mind, an "end my torment" kind of moment.

[> Re: The Descent of Xander (not an alaysis,but more of a fear. oh and Spoilers for Entropy) -- maddog, 11:56:55 05/02/02 Thu

No matter how big of a moral compass Xander has been throughout the show's 6+ years, he's ALWAYS hated vampires. Good or Bad. So this should be no shock to anyone. I wouldn't change your opinion of him now. Cause he's always hated them as a whole and you liked him. You also must remember that he's just done with what happened with Anya and he's not exactly thinking straight when it comes to her. Spike happened to be the target...but she could have slept with anyone and his reaction would have been bad(it just intensified cause of the vampire angle).

I, personally, still like him. Sure, on occasion when he does overact on the vampires you want him to just keep his mouth shut. But overall he is a good guy. He's got issues though, like we all do. His parents aren't exactly great role models. That can certainly attribute to his current situation. I see him in the same place that both Buffy and Willow are in. They've made mistakes. They're learning to be adults and that they have to pay for their mistakes. It goes along with the "Oh Grow Up" theme of the year. But it doesn't make them bad people. Good people make mistakes. It's how they all rebound that matters. And we may not see that right away. That may take til the middle, if not the end of next season.


Sick Point of View #2 (Entropy) -- SingedCat, 14:09:48 05/01/02 Wed

Second sick point of view-- it was kind of pleasing to see Anya do something so very human as turning to Spike for comfort. And it was just a little bit unfair for the Judgement King and Queen there to be acting like it was a deliberate insult-- I mean, can't two (um, shall we say- JILTED) people get it on in the semi-privacy of a closed shop? And I love Xander, I really do, but I couldn't help thinking as he was exiting that scene-- "How he feels now-- was exactly how Willow felt when he kissed Cordelia and slept with Faith."

And dammit, it sucked for Spike to say what he said right then, but Buffy should have grown a pair and said it first, and he's looking at her standing there *not* saying it-- I can't get on him as much as I might.

OK, enoiugh Xander-bashing. Anya was all too willing to get back into the demonic thing. That "chance" she was giving Xander to explain himself was just a fake-- she couldn't deal with working it out the hard way, she wanted the easy hurt.

Ironically, she wanted to torture and kill him, but now that's she's hurt him so deeply by sleeping with Spike, it's not satisfying. I just get the idea that she wouldn't have chosen that way to do it, even if she'd known it would hurt him this much.

And great scene with Spike and Anya-- GREAT job from them both, especially Marsters. You can see that Spike isn't actually that big on the whole pick-up line, get-the-girl- into-bed thing like you might think; it's really their frank
comiserating that makes him charming, not his compliments. (though I think they were at least partially sincere) I especially liked her line,"You know I'm just doing this because I'm drunk, and lonely, and you smell *really* good...?"

And Spike's look to Anya just before he walked out the door. We could have a whole other thread on it. You could tell he might be a ashamed on his own behalf, but he wasn't doing the stereotypical guy thing of losing respect for her. He seems to at least understand sex as something people do together, not something the guy *does to* the girl, which the girl *lets* the guy do. (sorry, just something that's been on my mind lately).

[> Agree on the head tilt thing (Re: Sick Point of View #2 (Entropy)) -- vandalia, 20:57:29 05/01/02 Wed

I really agree on the head-tilt. To me, it was as if he was saying 'no regrets here' to Anya before walking off, kind of an 'its okay' gesture. They both knew nothing would come of it, they both needed it, and afterwards they both felt awkward and confused. I think maybe Anya was worried Spike would hold it over Xander's head, maybe tell him, and he was reassuring her that it was between them, that he respected her too much to do that to her, even after the sex. God the man can portray so much with just a nod of his head!

[> [> Re: Agree on the head tilt thing (Re: Sick Point of View #2 (Entropy)) -- Liz, 11:11:16 05/02/02 Thu

Yes, that was an interesting exchange of looks. They got up and it was awkward and bad, but he nodded and then left, and I thought he was not only saying, "no regrets," I thought he was also saying, "I'm OK if you have regrets." Or "You want me to go and that's fine, I understand." Or something like that. It was friendly and respectful, even if I'm not putting it into the correct words. It was nice. It was a simple gesture that made a scene that could have played out as horrible and sad, and made it all right. The whole thing (to them) wasn't a bad mistake. It was meaningless, but also comforting, and to them it implied nothing for the future but was still not an utterly wrong choice. Unfortunately they were seen. And... interestingly, to Xander and Buffy it was all horrible. To Xander and Buffy it was a statement about Xander and Buffy. And because of that, it became kind of public knowledge, and so it BECAME about Xander and Buffy. Anya had to explain and say that it meant nothing and that Spike was just there. If she hadn't had to explain that to anyone, if it had remained private, then it might have been a sweet comforting moment. But because people barged in and made claims, their claims actually changed the situation. How strange.

[> [> [> People's claims -- yez, 15:06:35 05/02/02 Thu

Yeah, that does happen, doesn't it? People's perceptions seem to almost change the event. I would hope that Anya and Spike could retain their own perspective about it, and not buy into Buffy and Xander's versions of things.

I'm not sure I really get exactly what Spike's look meant, but I agree it was loaded, and that's enough for me to appreciate it. Anya's look troubled me, though. Both of them, they seemed even lonelier than before. I think that, like alcohol can cause a hangover, that kind of consolation sex can really drive home how much you aren't with the person you want to be with, even though it can feel really good for that little while, and leave you feeling even lonelier and emptier than before.

I really wish Spike could've kicked Xander's ass... Not seriously hurt him, but given him a good whipping and maybe knock some sense into him. Buffy, too. That pair have just been so freakin' lame lately... IMHO.

yez

[> [> [> [> No Satisfaction -- Spike Lover, 15:21:28 05/02/02 Thu

The head nod was sort of 'gentlemanly' thing to do. A & S were clearly in a great deal of pain as they got dressed. Compare, if you like, their silence w/ Spike & Buffy's conversation at the beginning of Wrecked.

But what spoke volumes as to what Spike was feeling in my mind was when Xander was whaling on him, and pulled out the wooden stake. Rather than duck or dodge, Spike, when he sees it, stands up straight to give Xander a better target. Spike was clearly in a LOT OF PAIN and remorseful.

And then Buffy shows up, and she still won't defend him or acknowledge him. I hate her guts.

[> [> [> [> [> Re: No Satisfaction -- SpikeMom, 20:46:15 05/02/02 Thu

I agree also that Spike's inclination of his head was a gesture of respect, like tipping a hat to a lady. Also not much difference than the "respects" salute offered in martial arts classes before and after a sparring session!

I was glad that Spike finally spoke up about him and Buffy. He gave her one last moment to speak up, to show him the simple respect he so desperately craves. She had her chance. I think Spike finally showed himself some respect. He's taken enough rejection from Cecily/ Dru/ Buffy. What was it he said in CRUSH... AAAHHH!! What the bloody hell is wrong with these bloody women!!!!?

[> as O/T as you can get, but you struck a note -- yuri, 21:15:47 05/02/02 Thu

He seems to at least understand sex as something people do together, not something the guy *does to* the girl, which the girl *lets* the guy do.

Coincidence, it's been on my mind lately too. I'm a girl, and it absolutely infuriates me. Once I was hooking up with this guy and he stops all of a sudden and looks at me deeply and says "are you sure?" I was really offended. I've had arguments with people - guys, mostly - about this, and they say that considering "how the world is" and how much this sort of thing can become an issue, they feel safest and kindest when they say something like that. I can really understand that, and I suppose that to ask when not necessary is better than not to ask when necessary, but if someone knows me, my personality and strength and politics, I find it audacious and offensive to imply that I would be doing something I don't want to do.


My thoughts on Entropy -- Spike Lover, 15:01:21 05/01/02 Wed

Great Episode. (It has been a while.) But first, is Charisma Carpenter pregnant? (0r just delivered?) She is looking a little heavy.

Great ep. Ok. I thought Willow and Dawn figured out Buffy/Spike's secret a little too easy and their non- reaction was a big let-down.

Other than that- I think Jonathan is next on the evil duo's hit list.

Great ep on the over all childishness of the characters.

re: trio. How many more people have to die/be endangered before B & SG will go to the police about what they know? How about an anonymous tip to crime stoppers? And it really shows how shallow B is. She was all concerned about the death of the girlfriend when she thought that she had done it. But now that she is not going to be the center of attention, what is one more dead girl?

re: Willow & Tara -getting back involved without working all the way through the problems -very human and yet, a bad mistake.

re: X -trying to have his cake and eat it too like so many men. He is unwilling to make a permanent committment to the woman he claims to love, and wants her to live with him, - and have their relationship return to the way it was. It will never be the same. Anya is right not to give in. Why should he buy a cow when he can get free milk through the fence whenever he wants?

re: JM -he has chemistry! I swear that scene w/ Anya was really hot, especially before it got to the table. Very touching. And he is right, B & X are weak. and young and stupid.

re: Anya- correct that Xander is a scared child (but aren't we all.) She did not go far enough. He is a coward and needs therapy.

re: Buffy's snide comment to Spike "it didn't take you long (to move on)". That made me mad. It tells me that she does not want him to move on at all, but wants him to forever wait in the wings as rejected guy- hoping eternally that the primadonna will change her mind. She deserves - to be cursed by a vengence demon- and to have her teeth kicked in.

re: B & X going off in one direction at the end. Someone commented earlier that they read this as X & B being labeled as the "wronged" party. I disagree. What rang home with me was that other lesson one learns as one grows in maturity... He who hesitates is lost or he who hesitates, loses. Love does not last forever. It can be stuffed out. It can dwindle and die if scorned or untended. There is a timeframe for love. (I am reminded of Doyle and Cordy. Doyle loved Cordy but could never tell her til the end, and then he was dead.)

Buffy just threw away the best thing that has ever happened to her. (Maybe she will wise up later and figure that out- but probably not.) Xander failed to step up to the plate (or the altar) and now Anya has already demonstrated the truth- that people who are treated in such a way, do not wait forever; they don't always back-pedal (like Xander wants or what Tara/Willow might have just done); often they move on to greener pastures and live happily ever after without you (See Dickens' A Christmas Carol)

[> Re: My thoughts on Entropy -huh? -- Corwin of Amber, 21:41:23 05/01/02 Wed

Ok...I realize your handle is 'Spike Lover' but...

>Buffy just threw away the best thing that has ever happened to her.

is taking it a bit too far, in my opinion. A lying, manipulitive, murderous vampire is the best that Buffy can do? Buffy just has to get over her 'bad boy' fixation, find some nice guy with a pulse and move on.

[> [> Re: My thoughts on Entropy -huh? -- Rob, 06:46:04 05/02/02 Thu

But is he a lying, manipulative, murderous vampire any more? I would say no.

Rob

[> [> [> Re: My thoughts on Entropy -huh? -- Robert, 07:25:30 05/02/02 Thu

>> "But is he a lying, manipulative, murderous vampire any more? I would say no."

He hasn't murdered anyone recently, but we have evidence that he would if the chip ever stopped functioning. Spike most definitely is still manipulative. He has been working Buffy ever since she broke off with him.

[> [> [> Re: My thoughts on Entropy -huh? -- maddog, 11:24:21 05/02/02 Thu

That may not be by choice though...so we're back to the "what if he got rid of his chip" theory. He's awfully moody. I'm just worried he'd go back to his old ways if scorned by one of the Scoobies.

[> [> [> [> Re: My thoughts on Entropy -huh? -- Morgane, 17:49:30 05/02/02 Thu

Anyway, as we saw before, didn't all the scoobies turned to their dark side when scorned. Willow, Anya, Xander, Buffy. They weren't always at their best you know.
Anyway, lately, in the B/S relationship, I don't believe Spike has been the manipulative one very much.
And Buffy, she got over her bad boy fixation with Riley, but she's two strong, her past is too intense, her secrets to heavy for a nice, normal guy, don't you think? She needs someone who can at least understand what hapenned to her. I mean, the last time she tried to explain to a guy what was her life about, it was to Riley and she didn't succeed very well. And back then, she hadn't died and resurrect from heaven, so who could believe her outside the scoobies. The only one who I ever see understanding her deeply was in After Life when Spike was holding her hands on the couch.

[> [> Re: My thoughts on Entropy -huh? -- Purple Tulip, 08:51:27 05/03/02 Fri

I really don't think that Spike was the manipulative one here. I mean, Buffy was the one who openly admitted that she was just using him, while she knew all along how madly in love with her he is. Right now, I would say that he acting more like a heart-broken, love-sick man rather than a murderous, manipulative vampire. I find it ironic how people are so quick to condemn Spike for his past actions and say that he's evil for what he's done, but will give no blame to Buffy for being less than perfect and hurting people as well. After all, Spike is the only one who helped her when she came back, the only one she could turn to, and the only one who never expected a single thing from her.

[> Re: My thoughts on Entropy -- Cydney, 06:58:02 05/02/02 Thu

Xander, the puppy, has always wanted to be alpha dog - and has always had stronger competiton in Angel, Riley, and now Spike. There is a reason why all his friends are girls.He doesn't have the self-esteem to compete (he believes) with other guys. I like Xander, but trying to kill Spike who cannot defend himself, is a bit over the top (though I predicted Buffy would have to save Spike at some point - though it wasn't a very 'savey' scene).

Xander and Buffy are both very hypocritical (a reflection of their need to grow up) at this point - Anya and Spike are not. I think what happened makes perfect sense - it's the way people can feel and react. Anya and Spike knew immediately what they did was just a momentary thing - but still had respect for each other. Xander and Buffy both have a problem with respecting certain others - and considering Buffy let Riley have it for just that...well. Guess she only applied the some demons are good thing to Angel.

Dictionary defintion of entropy is long, but includes - a measure of a system's disorder, chaos, the degree of disorder or uncertainty in a system.

We've been headed here all season. Love it!

[> [> What do you mean? -- Spike Lover, 08:11:12 05/02/02 Thu

Xander and Buffy both have a problem with respecting certain others - and considering Buffy let Riley have it for just that...well ??

hypo or hyper -critical?

[> [> [> Re: What do you mean? -- Cydney, 07:42:50 05/03/02 Fri

Not sure what you are asking, but I am referring to the episode (Yoko Factor, I think) where Riley leaves Buffy in a rush in the am because there is a demon to kill and Buffy says she never knew he was so prejudiced (sp).

Yet, she can't see past Spike being an 'evil thing' (though Tara can) because he doesn't have a soul. Yet, Maggie Walsh, the nerd herd, Ben, and even Angel - all with souls -have done terrible, evil things.

I think Buffy (the character) has a lot of great qualities, but is still too subject to peer pressure (another sign of immaturity).

Make sense?

[> Re: My thoughts on Entropy -- maddog, 10:24:36 05/02/02 Thu

I think they've all been suspecting it. I'm actually surprised Xander didn't get it faster, but he did have his own disgusting reaction over Anya to have. As for the non reaction...Dawn's only mad at Spike when everyone else is(I've always thought they got along fairly well). And I think Willow was trying to be supportive gal to everyone.

Xander doesn't need therapy. He's very human in his reactions. I think the problem is he's in love with a very old soul. She's been around long enough to understand how relationships really work. Where's Xander's experience? Cordy? Does that even count? He's young...and sometimes you have to learn the hard way...just don't do it to a vengance demon. :)

Does anybody remember how young these people are? Can't we cut them a little slack here? I mean, how many 21 year olds are mature enough to handle the things that Buffy does on a daily basis? I don't think we cut her enough slack for the crap she does put up with and handle...let alone the stuff she screws up.

While I agree Xander screwed up I can't say Buffy's is a bad choice. While her chemistry with Spike is great...that's not really a mature, adult relationship(especially if she couldn't even explain it to the Scoobies).

[> Re: My thoughts on Entropy -- skeeve, 10:39:19 05/02/02 Thu

It's too bad that someone who was thinking better than Xander didn't remind him that Anya was a vengeance demon for a thousand years. She wouldn't put up with Xander's father. There might be other ways for him to hurt Anya, but turning into his father wasn't one of them.

Then again, maybe the marriage wasn't such a good idea. Living with Anya might have been dangerous for Xander. How much pain would he die in if he forgot an anniversary? Leaving her at the altar was worse, but not that much worse.

[> [> Re: My thoughts on Entropy -- maddog, 11:39:07 05/02/02 Thu

Remember though, she'd lost her powers until last week. So if he'd just married her then she wouldn't have gone vengance demon on him and the threat wouldn't have existed.

[> [> [> skinning alive doesn't have to involve a demon -- skeeve, 12:56:50 05/02/02 Thu


[> Another example of "She who hesitates, loses" -- Spike Lover, 15:12:52 05/02/02 Thu

Riley: Moving on and getting married to Sam.

[> May they be happy with the life they've chosen! -- Rochefort, 20:37:10 05/02/02 Thu



Don't shoot me, but... (spoilers for Entropy) -- celticross, 16:30:32 05/01/02 Wed

...am I the only person who's not exactly happy Tara took Willow back last night? Don't get me wrong, I'm a fan of the W/T ship, but apart from Tara mentioning trust in her (nice) little speech, there was no word on the whole mind- wipe fiasco. No apology from Willow on how she screwed up and manipulated her lover so things could always be happy instead of facing the truth of Tara's views on the use of magic. Is it now good enough that Willow's magic-free, and what does that mean for the break-up? That it was never Willow's fault, because the nasty magic made her do it?

The mindwipe spells were, in my opinion, representative of emotional manipulation in any relationship, and Tara was both wise and very, VERY strong to get out when she did. I have real trouble seeing the Tara who saw through the spells to what they really were (Willow controlling the relationship because she didn't want things to be difficult) becoming the Tara who's happy enough that Willow isn't using magic anymore.

[> Re: Don't shoot me, but... (spoilers for Entropy) - - Vickie, 16:57:46 05/01/02 Wed

I thought that Tara's speech was pretty self-explanatory. She knows that they have a long road to travel, putting their relationship back together (if they can). But she's not willing to leave the smoochies on hold while they travel it.

I didn't read her speech as literally "skip it", though that is what she said.

Apparently, Tara's impressed by the progress Willow has made, courting her and carefully NOT making the Xander mistake. That is, Willow doesn't pretend that she has any right to object to Tara's friend, if the friend is more than just a friend. This is very non-controlling. Also, Willow is quite frank that she is relieved the friend IS just a friend.

[> I disagree... -- Rob, 17:03:54 05/01/02 Wed

"Don't get me wrong, I'm a fan of the W/T ship, but apart from Tara mentioning trust in her (nice) little speech, there was no word on the whole mind-wipe fiasco. No apology from Willow on how she screwed up and manipulated her lover so things could always be happy instead of facing the truth of Tara's views on the use of magic. Is it now good enough that Willow's magic-free, and what does that mean for the break-up? That it was never Willow's fault, because the nasty magic made her do it?"

I don't think that is what is being implied at all. It was most certainly Willow's fault that she used the magic the way she did. A drunk driver isn't acquited of killing someone because he was too drunk to know what he was doing, if you know what I'm saying. But, while the situation was her fault, she was still under the influence of very dark powers, which have represented the only form of harm Willow has ever done Tara (and ever would do). Therefore, with the threat gone, with Willow's overcoming of her addiction, and Tara seeing how far Willow has come, Tara is ready to let her back into her life again.

Yes, Willow was using mind-manipulation, and yes, some may never be able to forgive it...but Tara is a very wise person, and she realizes that, in the normal course of events, Willow would never have done this. While Tara was mad, hurt, and outraged when it happened, she knew that Willow was becoming addicted to the magic. And the harm Willow did to Tara was, of course, a spell. Tara left her because of her addiction. I don't think Willow should be punished forever, since she has now been clean for a long time and has shown great determination to stay on a straight and narrow path (only not that kind of straight ;o) ).

As far as an actual talk about the Lethe's Bramble, I don't think it was necessary to show. They both know what happened, and would probably both rather forget about it now (no pun intended)...When Willow was caught originally, she apologized to Tara, but words don't mean anything if you don't back them up. Now, the only apology Tara needs is to see how much Willow has done to make amends for the harm she caused her. Actual change is far better than promises and apologies.

Rob

[> [> Re: I disagree... -- DEN, 17:22:20 05/01/02 Wed

And is there nobody on this board who hasn't let their heart command their head--just once? I think Tara came to the house full of good intentions. She said all the right things about trust and time. And then she saw Willow. Be honest. What would YOU have done?

[> [> Re: I disagree... -- Farstrider, 17:48:21 05/01/02 Wed

If Willow had stabbed Tara, would everything be ok if Willow stopped using knives?

I think you missed the point of Celticross's post. The magic was simply the means to an end. It was the tool that Willow used to do something awful to Tara. The fact that she did the awful thing is still important, and not excused merely by Willow deciding not to use that tool.

[> [> [> Yes, it was awful, but... -- Rob, 19:36:12 05/01/02 Wed

...there is a serious difference between stabbing someone with a knife and what Willow did. As awful as it was, Willow did this because she thought she was helping things. At that time, she thought it really would be better for both Tara and her if Tara just forgot the conversation. She did not commit an act of violence against her; it was a violation. She should not have done it. She had no business doing it. It doesn't make what she did any less wrong, but she did what she did out of a desire to make things better. One couldn't argue the same thing if she had stabbed Tara. If she had stabbed her, it would have been an act malicious in conception and execution. The brainwash she did was malicious in execution, but, in conception, Willow thought it was the most peaceful thing she could do--stop the argument from continuing. No, I don't agree with it. Yes, I think Tara was right to dump her. But no, I don't think Tara's wrong to take her back now.

If Willow had truly been an abuser, she might have gone after Tara with her magic after Tara left her. But she didn't. Because she loves her and would never harm her intentionally, even if Tara broke her heart into a million pieces by leaving her, which she did. (Again, not that she wasn't right to do so...)

Willow acted recklessly, and wrongfully, but if Tara can find it in her heart to forgive her, I don't see why we shouldn't be able to. As I said before, Willow made serious, true repentence here, not only by apologizing, but by completely changing her lifestyle. I think she deserves huge props for that.

Magic wasn't a "means to an end," as you put it, because, had Willow not been a witch and not used magic, she would have had no way to erase Tara's memory. She certainly didn't want to hurt her...She wanted the fight to stop. Magic became Willow's all-access remote control. Why go up to the TV to change a channel when you have a remote? And in the same token, why go out and get party decorations when you can just go poof and have them appear? Why work at a relationship and deal with an argument, when you can just make it go away? That's how Willow became addicted...Using magic as an easy way out of uncomfortable situations.

It would be a very different story if Willow had summoned dark forces to smite Tara...but she didn't. If she did, you could compare it with physical abuse. As it stands now, it was a case of good intentions, BAAAAD idea.

Rob



Rob

[> [> [> [> Sorry, Rob, but I don't agree -- Vickie, 19:53:31 05/01/02 Wed

For me, there's a line you can cross, beyond which I don't care what your intentions were. And, for me, Willow crossed it.

She didn't violate Tara's mind just once. She did it twice, the second time deliberately breaking a promise. Even if "she thought it really would be better for both Tara and her if Tara just forgot the conversation," Tara made her own position clear after the first occurrence.

Even with the best intentions in the world, you don't override another beings free will that way. Not if they're an adult. Children may need protection, but even there you must respect their personhood and not play thought police.

Willow was very lazy in her relationship with Tara, very arrogant, and very wrong. Yes, she has tried to overcome her "magic addiction" and largely succeeded so far. But addiction wasn't the problem in the relationship (as you have pointed out). Her controlling actions were.

We call a romantic partner who tries to control what their SO thinks and feels abusive. Willow was abusive of Tara in those two actions.

Please don't get me wrong. I love Willow and I truly believe that if she ever figures this out she'll be devastated. But the whole "addiction" thing has muddied the water.

As always, your mileage may vary. Rip it up.

[> [> [> [> [> Sorry, I left "coercion" out -- Vickie, 20:22:15 05/01/02 Wed

I left coercion out of my definition of abuse above. It should say "We call a romantic partner who uses coercion to control what their SO thinks and feels abusive."

Obviously, I think the Tabula Rasa and Forget spells are coercion.

[> [> [> [> [> [> Abusive Relationships in BtVS -- Spike Lover, 08:48:56 05/02/02 Thu

Well, well. What is this? Now who is being accused of being abusive? Not just evil Spike anymore, (though I never thought he was abusive- well, maybe a bit to Harmony.)

Let's tally this up.

1) Xander, who fears he will turn into his abusive father and will end up killing his wife w/ a frying pan. He has assumed the controlling high road- and perhaps for sometime has (in the past for always correcting Anya's thoughts, feelings, and words. -mild form of emotional abuse.)

2) Buffy who beats her lover to a pulp in an alley (physical) and tells him he is an evil thing (psychological abuse).

3) Willow who tries to control her lover's feelings and actions with magic.

4) The trio who are going to create a sex slave, controlling her desires and free will. (Rape issue has already been noted and discussed.) Then beat her to death. If she had not died but had lived, they would have made her the sex slave again. (Sexual abuse)

5) Others?

[> [> [> [> [> Re: Sorry, Rob, but I don't agree -- maddog, 09:01:17 05/02/02 Thu

In all fairness to Willow the second time wasn't meant for Tara, it was meant for Buffy. So that wasn't premeditated or planned...hell, her mind was screwed with the second time around. Fortunately for Tara and Willow you're not Willow. :)

[> [> [> [> [> [> The second time was meant for BOTH Buffy and Tara - - RelativeGirl, 09:43:34 05/02/02 Thu

I think Willow's second "mind erasure" spell was definitely meant for both Buffy and Tara. When Willow kneels at the fireplace to do the Tabula Rasa spell she says:

'For Buffy and Tara this I char, let
Lethe's Bramble do its chore. Purge
their minds of memories grim, of
pains from recent slights and sins...'

So I think it's clear that Willow was trying to take Tara's bad memories away just as much as Buffy's. At the end of the episode when Tara pushes Willow off of her, Tara's upset not only because Willow broke her promise to not use magic for one week, but even more horrifying, Willow used the Tabula Rasa spell to violate Tara's mind a second time in an ill-considered attempt to remedy having been caught violating Tara's mind the first time with the Lethe's Bramble spell. That was an enormous betrayal by Willow which destroyed the trust between them and Tara knew she had to leave Willow no matter how much she loved her.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: The second time was meant for BOTH Buffy and Tara -- Malandanza, 11:02:20 05/02/02 Thu

I agree but would add that I think the spell was primarily meant for Tara -- Buffy was a convenient excuse. Willow could lie to herself and say that she was casting the spell for Buffy's sake and she had to include Tara (also for Buffy's sake -- since Tara wouldn't understand), but the truth is that the spell was all for Willow's sake.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: The second time was meant for BOTH Buffy and Tara -- maddog, 11:44:39 05/02/02 Thu

I'd agree with the later half that it was all for Willow's sake but I have to disagree that it was more for Tara...did you see the look in Willow's eyes in OMWF when she heard the word "heaven". That was pain. To think she'd ripped Buffy from heaven must have killed her. And if a mind altering spell to make her forget her good experience(and not be so upset in general and mad at Willow) is what it takes then she was prepared to do it.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: The second time was meant for BOTH Buffy and Tara -- maddog, 11:10:58 05/02/02 Thu

Don't have Tabula Rasa on tape. I must have missed the mention of Tara in the one and only time I saw it. I thought she was just so upset about where she'd pulled Buffy from that she wanted her to forget it. My bad.

[> [> [> [> Re: Yes, it was awful, but... -- maddog, 08:39:40 05/02/02 Thu

Suppose Willow thought Tara was going to do harm to someone and stabbed her to keep her from doing so. Then she has her good intentions, but was wrong to do what she did. Intentions are nice and all, but your actions are what counts. What Willow did showed signs of immaturity not often found in her character. Instead of facing her problems she decided to use magic to get rid of them. In saying that I still don't see a problem with Tara taking her back.

[> [> [> [> [> Two cents worth -- Celia Murphy, 12:26:49 05/02/02 Thu

A fair warning that I'm one to occasionally surf the discussion board and not post so forgive me if this has been posted before.

Everyone has been talking about Willow's actions and Tara's reactions in her abuse of magic. While it's obvious that ME is using the drug metaphor, I think the troubled relationship between W/T is rooted in Willow's immaturity. How many of us have based current relationships on past relationships? Willow was betrayed by Xander by his "rather being with someone you hate than with me" and betrayed by Oz with his actions. It didn't surprise me in the least that Willow turned to magic when things went rough between her and Tara. She turned to magic when Oz betrayed her. While I'm not an expert by any means, I would expect that after losing the love of her life in Oz and then "realizing she was gay", she basically was starting over again. There are some parallels between W/O and W/T. These are both first loves in a sense. She resorted to magic when things were rough. She went on her "will" hunt to stop the hurt after Oz and went with Amy to "have a good time" to stop the hurt after Tara. I don't believe that Willow understands what it takes a relationship to work. Everytime things get rough, she takes the easy way out. This goes back to the first episode when she breaks into the city planning site ("guys, there may be an easier way").

But I digress. Tara left Willow for one reason and one reason only. Trust. She could no longer trust that Willow wouldn't continue to find ways to manipulate her. The fact that she came into Willow's bedroom in Entrophy doesn't change that. This whole relationship started out as friends with magic as the common denominator. Willow hasn't gotten past that stage while Tara has. The end of Wrecked speaks of "Tara didn't even know that girl". Willow is too scared to let Tara see that girl she was (and I believe still is). Remember Restless?

I agree that Tara is not really taking Willow back with open arms. It may very well be that ME is just running out of time if the rumors are to be trusted.

Well, that's my rambling for the day. Guess I'm out two cents ;-)

[> [> [> [> [> [> Spoiler for Seeing Red in above post -- LittleBit, 12:44:08 05/02/02 Thu


[> [> [> Re: I disagree... -- maddog, 08:30:33 05/02/02 Thu

I don't this it was just that simple as Tara's recognition of Willow not using magic. I think it was a lot more(much of which is described in the previous posts).

[> I totally agree. -- Ian, 18:08:30 05/01/02 Wed


I think CC hit the nail on the head when she said, "Tara...saw through the spells to what they really were (Willow controlling the relationship because she didn't want things to be difficult)."

Willow has abstained from magic, yes. Magic has been made to seem drug-like, yes. However, Tara left because she understood that magic wasn't screwing with her mind and identity, Willow was. For this same Tara to return to Willow without an actual statement from Willow acknowledging this is bizarre. The root of their relationship problems was Willow's desire to have her way at any cost, and her disrespectful and abusive behavior of Tara.

Willow may be in denial of the actual problem, but Tara hasn't been. For this reason, I had the same problem with how Tara's return was handled.

To me, the drug-like nature of Magic have always seemed mis- represented by the show. Magic was addictive to Willow because Willow was on a power trip. Willow was addicted to *power.* Magic was just Willow's tool. Willow may have used magic to improperly, but it was always Willow's responsibility.

For these reasons, I'm am also unsatisfied with how their reconciliation was handled. Willow stopped using Magic. Good. However, has Willow ever voiced that the problem lay in her intent and behavior? Not really. Willow and the SG, with the exception of Tara, have treated this as a case of "bad magic." However, Tara left precisely because she understood she was being mistreated.

I have no problem with the two of them getting back together. In fact, I welcome it. However, I was aggravated that Tara came back without even a simple *statement* from Willow saying, "I'm sorry. Magic didn't abuse you, I did."

Willow's actions do speak loudly. But not THAT loudly.

[> [> Very good points, but suppose in the next ep... -- OnM, 19:26:33 05/01/02 Wed

...Willow does say, "I'm sorry. Magic didn't abuse you, I did" or words to that exact effect?

Would that be acceptable, or do you think it should be necessary as a prior?

I just think the two are profoundly in love, and Tara is a forgiving sort at heart. She apparently forgives Buffy for her relationship with Spike, and she's not in love with Buffy.

(BTW, not spoiled in this specific instance, so I really don't know if she does or does not).

[> [> [> Why would Tara (spoilers up to Entropy) -- Vickie, 19:42:13 05/01/02 Wed

need to forgive Buffy for anything? She hasn't been wronged by Buffy's relationship with Spike. It doesn't appear that she's even been hurt by it (definitely not the same thing).

Apart from that quibble, I agree. I doubt Tara consciously intended the outcome we saw, when she went to visit Willow. She most likely wanted to continue the relationship repair they had started in the college corridors and at the coffee shop. But seeing Will in their old room, the feelings came through very strongly and....

Blam! Willow kissage.

I don't think Will gets the whole abuse thing yet, though.

[> [> [> [> Re: Why would Tara (spoilers up to Entropy) -- maddog, 09:21:25 05/02/02 Thu

I agree...Tara really doesn't have anything to be mad at Spike about...so it wouldn't hurt her to have Buffy sleeping with him. But he's terrorized the others since high school. They have a right to not like him, and a right to be upset with Buffy for lieing to them about him.

[> [> Chiming in to agree too -- Sophist, 20:06:05 05/01/02 Wed

Ian's points are excellent. The only mitigating factor I can think of is that if Willow has given up magic, her tool of oppression, then Tara is no longer at personal risk from that source. It may, therefore, be safe (physically) to return. But clearly Willow and ME have not acknowledged yet the true nature of the harm done. Happy as I was to see them together, that still needs to happen.

[> [> [> Re: Chiming in to agree too -- Robert, 07:45:50 05/02/02 Thu

>> "But clearly Willow and ME have not acknowledged yet the true nature of the harm done."

This is a very strong statement. What is your evidence?

[> [> [> [> Proving a negative -- Sophist, 08:19:29 05/02/02 Thu

My own view, supported I think by most of the posters here (at least in this thread), is that the real problem with Willow's behavior was her abuse of power, not abuse of magic. Tara specifically said this to Willow in TR, but in every episode thereafter, Willow has behaved as though her problem were magic "addiction". I don't believe she has ever acknowledged her real fault, and it is that absence of evidence to which I referred.

My mention of ME in the same sentence was meant as a dig at the magic=addiction metaphor, which I don't like and which I don't think explains the real nature of Willow's problem that was correctly identified by Tara in TR.

[> [> [> [> [> Re: Proving a negative (various SPOILERS of past episodes) -- Robert, 11:21:50 05/02/02 Thu

If I wanted proof, I would have asked for it. You gave a us very strong statement in you original posting.

>> "But clearly Willow and ME have not acknowledged yet the true nature of the harm done."

The word "clearly" implies to me that if I don't agree with your conjecture, then I don't see clearly. You gave the statement without any support in your posting. I asked for some support, mostly because I was unclear on what you meant by the "true nature of the harm done".

>> "... Willow's behavior was her abuse of power, not abuse of magic."

I do agree with this. Willow has consistantly considered rules and laws to be something which applied to somebody else. Starting with "Welcome to the Hellmouth", Willow was cracking computer networks to get access to privaledged information. I believe that her excesses may be attributed to her insecurity about herself. The episodes "The Wish" and "Dopplegangland" provide us a graphic view of Willow without any inhibitions. Previous to season 6, Willow's abuse of power has been to serve the needs of the group and their mission. In season 6, the abuse turned inward.

Before "Tabula Rosa", Tara was not asking Willow to abandon magic, just to use it sparingly, for necessary and important purposes only. At this point however, Willow was so drunk with the power she garnered from magic, she began to see her friends and lover as something less than equal.

I view the true nature of the harm done by Willow as betrayal, and though this applied to all of the group, Willow's betrayal of Tara is greater than for the others. All the physical and mental injuries were minor compared to this. What do you see as the true nature of the harm? What do you mean when you say that Mutant Enemy (ie. the writers) have not acknowledged the true nature of the harm?

We have not seen on screen a verbal "fifth step" style acknowledgement from Willow of the harm she committed upon her friends and family. We did see the initial pronouncements of remorse and guilt after Dawn was injured in "Wrecked". At the time, I didn't think these statements were sincere. I figured that Willow would go right back into using magic worse than ever, and that a more serious accident would be needed before Willow hit rock bottom. Willows actions since then however have demonstrated a level of commitment and contrition beyond words. I am hoping that ME does not give us a "fifth step" scene at this point, as I think it would be excessively hokey. I don't believe that a statement of "I'm sorry" is what her friends and family need.

This may tie also into the current difficulties between Anya and Xander. Some have suggested that their relationship is beyond redemption and, in a sense, it certainly is. Anya and Xander can never return to the way it was before Xander proposed marriage in "The Gift". However, a new relationship may be possible. Their current relationship has been doomed all season due to lack of communication and contradictory requirements.

Xander cannot, or will not, get married. The act or ceremony of marriage sticks in his craw, no doubt due to his parents disfunctional relationship. Some might think Xander is unwilling to make a commitment, yet in a sense he already has. Anya wants or needs a marriage and children and the rest of the ideal American style family. Xander is completely at fault for proposing to Anya when he couldn't deliver. He set an expectation he couldn't meet.

The question is whether Anya can forgive his betrayal at the altar and enter into a relationship without an expectation of marriage. I would certainly not blame her if she can't or won't. It may be that a new relationship just isn't possible.

Xander has repeatedly told Anya that he loves her, but his actions at the altar suggested otherwise. In "Entropy" Anya was not willing to hear or believe his words. During her session with Spike and the alcohol, she gained some empathy for Xander and lost the desire to smote him with demon vengeance. What will she take from Xander's showdown with Spike at the end of the episode? Xander is showing in his actions that he really does still care for Anya (whether this is love or possessiveness is a question for future episodes) and that he was deeply hurt by her actions. Will this serve reconciliation or more conflicts? I don't know.

[> [> [> [> [> [> When you're sorry for the wrong thing, it doesn't count. -- yez, 13:45:25 05/02/02 Thu

"I am hoping that ME does not give us a "fifth step" scene at this point, as I think it would be excessively hokey. I don't
believe that a statement of "I'm sorry" is what her friends and family need. "

It's not so much that Willow should say she's sorry. She needs to acknowledge what happened. I'm with others who feel that we haven't been shown yet that Willow truly understands what was wrong with what she did -- and more importantly, *why* she did it. For me, the hope is that in an "I'm sorry," we would actually see what she thinks she's sorry for and why she thinks she did what she did. It makes a difference. Like others, I feel that Willow giving up magic doesn't solve the problems that led her to do what she did.

On the other hand, her lack of self-insight and these issues is great fodder for future drama. :)

yez

[> [> [> [> [> [> I think we're in agreement here -- Sophist, 14:54:36 05/02/02 Thu

even if I haven't explained it well. If we agree that the true nature of the harm was abuse of power, not magic, then all I meant was that ME has confused things with the magic=drugs metaphor. It has not mentioned the abuse of power since TR. All I meant by "clearly (they) have not yet acknowledged the true nature of the harm done" was that this point has not been made a part of Willow's recovery.

I agree with you about Xander and Anya.

[> [> [> [> [> [> Willow's Insecurities -- RelativeGirl, 15:12:10 05/02/02 Thu

>>"I believe that her excesses may be attributed to her insecurity about herself"<<

I totally agree. Willow is someone who clearly was raised to play by the rules and, for the most part, she has done so and excelled in all the ways she was expected to excell. She's the good girl who is, in her own words, very seldom naughty. But instead of having her ego bolstered by things like her academic success and intellectual prowess, she seems to have interpreted her abilities as irrefutable evidence that she is a geek, a nerd and somehow not worthy of love (obviously she had help from the Cordelias of the world and her absentee parents to develop this self- loathing). Like most of us who were subjected to the hell that was high school, Willow began to define her worth, and her "coolness factor", based on the coolness of her friends. Although the SG was never treated as the 'in-crowd' in high school, Willow clearly sees Buffy and Giles as "cool" people she wants to hang with. So she takes her talent with computers and makes herself useful and necessary to cool Buffy and cool Giles (and for a while, cool Jenny Calendar) by hacking in to every computer network imaginable. In other words, she raises her self esteem by breaking the Rules in order to strenghthen her relationship with people she deems to be "cool".

When Willow pairs up with Oz, she's again breaking the Rules for a good girl b/c she's dating a musician -- something a bit out of the ordinary for good girls who are very seldom naughty, a bit rebellious. Again she sees her relationship with Oz as proof to herself that she is not just a geek or a dork b/c she's dating a musician.

Later in high school Willow breaks the rules by dabbling with Magic, making herself even more useful to the SG. As Dawn reminds us in The Body, Magic is all about messing with the natural order of things, it's about breaking the Rules. And both we, and I think Willow, begin to discover that she has the potential to be a profoundly talented witch when she is actually able to restore Angel's soul.

In college, Willow starts pursuing magic in a serious way. In doing so, she meets Tara, a sister witch, and falls deeply in love. Obviously ME used magic as metaphor for sex with Willow and Tara, but sometimes when they were doing spells, they were just doing magic spells. In other words, for the first time, Willow had a co-conspirator in breaking the Rules, a partner in every possible sense of the word. And a partner with whom she is also breaking the rules about good girls being heterosexual (for the record, I believe Willow is absolutely positively gay, and not just experimenting b/c it breaks the rules). Willow seems to get a bit of a charge every time she announces she is gay (especially when being interviewed by the Watchers' Council) whereas Tara seems much more comfortable and grounded with her sexuality. Excelling in magic and falling in love with Tara must have been incredibly intoxicating for Willow. Her self-esteem was clearly bolstered by Tara and the magic -- both validated Willow's belief that she was no longer a geek and a dork. So she ran with it and became more and more deeply entrenched in the black arts until she was no longer in control.

I think one of the all time heart-breaking Willow scenes is in Wrecked when Willow and Buffy are talking in Willow's bedroom and Willow pretty much lays bare all of her insecurities and the extent to which she tried to use magic to ensure that she was worthy of Tara's affections:

WILLOW: The magic. I thought I had it under
control. And then... I didn't.
BUFFY: Why? Because of Tara?
WILLOW: No. It started before she left. It's why she left.
BUFFY: But everything seemed to be going so well...
WILLOW: It was... But, I mean, if you could be plain old Willow - or Super Willow? Who would you want to be? I guess you don't actually have the option on the whole "super" thing.
BUFFY: Will, there's nothing wrong with you. You don't need magic to be special-
WILLOW: Don't I? (near tears) Buffy, who was I? Just some girl. Tara didn't even know that girl...
BUFFY: You were more than "some girl". And Tara wants you to stop. She loves you-
WILLOW: We don't know that-
BUFFY: I know that. I promise you.
WILLOW: It just, it took me away from myself. I felt so... free.

Obviously Willow doesn't believe that "plain old Willow" is worthy of all the things Willow desires from life, including Tara's love. I think it's just astonishing that Willow can doubt whether Tara actually loves her. Say what you will about Tara, but even people who dislike her would admit that she's one of, if not the most, loving and giving characters in the Buffyverse, whether it's her love for Willow or her nuturing of Dawn or her empathy for Buffy. That Willow actually doubts that Tara loves her speaks volumes about Willow's belief that she is not worthy of Tara's love and therefore Tara's love for her cannot be real. And at the end of her sad speech, Willow admits that the best thing about magic is that it took her away from herself -- which I take to mean that she so loathes who she fears she might actually be, she is willing to go to extremes to escape herself, to not be that girl at the drinking fountain who is ridiculed by Cordelia for "finding the softer side of Sears" and not "being such a guy magnet."

So long as Willow is enslaved by her insecurities, her relationships with all of her friends, but especially Tara, will be vulnerable. Willow's got a mountain of work to do, and I don't know if Tara realizes the size of the task, but I think it's admirable that she's willing to return to the relationship and try to provide the love and support that Willow will clearly need to heal herself. How that's going to happen, or if that's going to happen, in light of the upcoming spoilers . . . . troubled waters ahead.

[> [> Re: I totally agree. -- clg0107, 10:22:16 05/02/02 Thu

>>However, Tara left because she understood that magic wasn't screwing with her mind and identity, Willow was. >>For this same Tara to return to Willow without an actual statement from Willow acknowledging this is bizarre.

Keep in mind though, Tara still loved Willow even when she left. She was doing the smart thing, yes. But the love didn't die.

Now, with Willow "clean" and them having this tentative rapprochment -- how easy for all that love to come rushing back to the forefront, overwhelming even the most sensible of intellectual considerations. At least, that was my take on Tara's little speech at the end.

Tara may be the most mature of them all, but she's not made of stone. I don't see this as a bizarre turn at all. How many of us wouldn't come back to someone that we really loved to try it again, even if logic says that maybe it's too soon???

The point of many of the themes of the series is that we can identify ourselves with the characters, even though their fears/problems/etc. tend to manifest as otherworldly beings and situations. I can identify with Tara in this. I'm not saying it was logic-based behaviour. But I get it. And that's the point....

~ clg0107

[> Re: Don't shoot me, but... (spoilers for Entropy) - - vandalia, 21:05:23 05/01/02 Wed

I don't think Tara has gotten back together with Willow at all, though I wouldn't fault Willow (or the audience) for thinking so. I can definitely say that Tara isn't moving back into the house, and I think that Tara will probably tell Willow in the morning that last night didn't mean they were back together, it just meant she was willing to give Willow the chance to keep trying. I think this will also really hurt Willow. (utter speculation, I'm not spoiled at all).

Tara was just like Spike and Anya, to a certain extent: hurt and lonely and needy and probably sexually frustrated (it'd been MONTHS for her, after all). She knew Willow would say yes, and she needed some companionship (though I never would've thought Tara had it in her to make a booty call). But I do think its going to come back and bite her in the... booty, when Willow realizes this does not mean all is forgiven and forgotten and she can't just go back to the way things were before.

[> [> Re: Don't shoot me, but... (spoilers for Entropy) - - Rattletrap, 21:31:09 05/01/02 Wed

It is worth noting here that "back together" can mean a bunch of different things. After the end of "Entropy," I think it is fair to say they are involved with each other in an amorous (possibly even sexual) relationship, probably an exclusive one--in that sense they would be "back together." I think vandalia is correct, though, that Tara will probably be a bit guarded about moving back into the house or becoming too committed at this early stage--they would not be "back together" in the same way they were in "Bargaining." The scene at the end of "Entropy" suggests that the healing is beginning, not that it is complete. In that sense, I can commend Tara's decision to get back together with Willow as a kind act of faith and trust, not one of abject foolishness.

[> Okay, after reading the responses of those who agreed...(a little bit of spec) -- Rob, 21:07:02 05/01/02 Wed

I understand the position you guys seem to have on the whole, which is that, yes, it is good Willow has stopped with her instrument of abuse, but the bad thing is that she hasn't acknowledged the true source of the problem which lies not in the "addiction" but in her own actions.

After reading your posts, I agree with you partly. While I don't think Tara was wrong to take Willow back, I do think that Willow hasn't addressed the real problem, although I still think she deserves a great deal of credit for getting over her surface addiction. But I think that that is the point, too, and is Willow's major character flaw. I think the writers have a very specific reason for leaving this flaw in...and we'll just have to wait for the next bunch of episodes to see if my theory fits in with what occurs.

I still think, though, that it is a good thing that Tara and Willow are back together. So sue me! :o)

Rob

[> [> Re: Okay, after reading the responses of those who agreed...(a little bit of spec) -- Robert, 07:48:09 05/02/02 Thu

>> "I do think that Willow hasn't addressed the real problem,"

On the other hand, with Tara back, it may be easier for Willow to work through the core issues and problems.

[> Re: Don't shoot me, but... (spoilers for Entropy) - - relativegirl, 22:44:41 05/01/02 Wed

I didn't interpret Tara's speech and the Willow kissage to mean that all is necessarily forgiven and in the past. As long as Willow kept using magic, there was no way Tara was going to get thru to her (Lord knows she tried several times before she finally left), and we didn't see Tara having any contact with Willow until she heard from the SG that Willow had gone cold turkey. Then Willow approached Tara several times in very tentative ways and never took the attitude of "OK I've kicked the habit so you have to come back to me now." Instead, Willow approached Tara knowing that she didn't have a right to expect anything from Tara. I think this shows genuine contrition on Willow's part.

I also think that Tara's wise enough to know that it can take time to mend a relationship but sometimes you have to get back into the relationship to mend it as opposed to staying totally apart and hoping that you will each figure stuff out on your own. So I interpreted Tara's actions in Entropy as more of a reaffirmation of her love for Willow and her willingness to return to the relationship, but knowing full well they have a lot of work to do to rebuild the relationship back to what it was.

And sometimes when you absolutely know you've found your one and only, you just can't stay away.

[> [> very well said... especially that last line. ;-) ......btw, welcome to the board! ;-) -- Solitude1056, 23:37:12 05/01/02 Wed


[> [> Re: Don't shoot me, but... (spoilers for Entropy) - - Rufus, 00:58:50 05/02/02 Thu

I didn't interpret Tara's speech and the Willow kissage to mean that all is necessarily forgiven and in the past.

I do see it as Tara forgiving Willow. Of course what I consider forgiveness to be is the putting aside the resentment, not condoning the act. Tara has been able to put aside her resentment, and attempt to rebuild a relationship with Willow. By coming back to Willow she isn't condoning her misuse of magic, but trying to build a new relationship with someone she loves and will learn to again trust....people get stuck when they think that forgiveness is a free ticket for the person who wronged you to do the same thing again. Tara has set limits that she expects Willow to respect.

[> [> Dont we all like positive reinforcement? -- neaux, 04:47:54 05/02/02 Thu

great points Relativegirl.

I would just like to add that Positive Reinforcements can work wonders. Who is to say that Tara can't monitor Willow's progress with Kissies and smoochies??

I believe Willow has reached the point in her recovery where this step can actually be taken. Showing up (not at the Summer's door) but at Willow's Bedroom door should be a big Lightbulb click in Willow's head that addiction bad.. magic free is good. Sexy friendly visitors also good. Its up to Willow to do the math of pluses and minuses.

[> Do not agree with you! (spoilers for Entropy) -- Robert, 07:41:27 05/02/02 Thu

>> "No apology from Willow on how she screwed up and manipulated her lover so things could always be happy instead of facing the truth of Tara's views on the use of magic. Is it now good enough that Willow's magic-free, and what does that mean for the break-up? That it was never Willow's fault, because the nasty magic made her do it? "

I believe you misread the situation.

Tara did not leave Willow as punishment. She left Willow for the sake of her own survival and to remove herself from the position of co-dependency. As others have said in the postings above, mere words could never sufficiently make amends for what Willow did to Tara. However, Tara never stopped loving Willow. The fact that Willow has made the effort to "dry up" is evidence that she still loves Tara. The apology is more strongly stated by Willows actions and commitment to staying magic-free, than if she had merely said she was sorry.

[> Re: Don't shoot me, but... (spoilers for Entropy and beyond) -- maddog, 08:19:33 05/02/02 Thu

The apologies were made long ago...Tara just wasn't ready to accept them at the time. I was happy, but surprised they let them get back together so quickly but knowing what I know about next week and what should be the fate of Tara I suppose they were running out of time. It'll make Willow even more upset...she had her chance at redemption with Tara and now she's gone. Big time anger there.

[> [> It does say 'Spoilers for beyond' here, but to make extra plain-- **SEEING RED* SPOILERS ABOVE!!* -- OnM, 16:51:19 05/02/02 Thu


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